Why don't you at least try to talk to your wife? If there is something she can do to help, I am sure she would want to.

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That is so the depreshion talking .....no matter what I do I am bound to fail so why even try ....I am just a failure always will be one I just wanted to die....that's what depreshion does to you .....that's what you have to fight and sometimes we just can't do it on our Owen .....it is no wounder you hide it people who have never been through depreshion have no clue what we go through ....we can't talk to them ..that is why this group and others like it are so important ......I am thinking you hide it because you think you should be stronger than this .....this shouldn't happen to you .....this happened to other people .....this happened to a lot of people .....you need to stop hiding it and go for the help you need ....if you haven't already ..you need to see a councillor or a phicatrist...... And if you are not on meds you should think on going on some .... This doesn't mean you are weak it is that you are sick and if you brook a leg you wouldn't think twice about going to the hospital for the treatment you need ....well you have a illness and it needs to be treated ........and one of the most important things is to talk everything has to come out all the things that have ever hurt you have to come out ...if you want to heal ..................you will find out who you are and you will find out that you are a lot stronger than you thought...it takes strong people to fight depression ........in here you will find people who understand you and don't judge you ........take care of your self .....god bless

Yes that's the voice of depression hun. I recognize it because of the words and tone it takes with EVERYBODY.

We can't see it ourselves, so support is key. I think that you should let your wife in on your feelings. I say that because alot of times our families think one way about us and/or what's going on, when it's really quite different. Not saying that she will completely understand, but at least you will have tried to share it.

Take heart dear. We're all struggling. There is a better day. There really is.

Totally depression talking dude, not you, trust me. Talk to your wife, I guarantee she will be there for you and do her best to understand, you need as much support as you can get. Do not keep your thoughts and emotions inside they will only eat you up, the sooner you let it out and get the help you deserve the better, all the best :-)

When we get in a funk and depressed, we tend to think no-one wants to help or cares about us. That is not necessarily true. I agree that you should give your wife a chance. People marry for the good or bad, and so many other reasons. Please give her a chance. You have a lot to celebrate. The biggest is your birthday!! I can picture the look on your mother's face when you were born. I remember my face with my 2 boys and also my 5 grandchildren. There is nothing like it. You can't change your old boss, you can only change yourself. Don't worry about other people, they have some growing up to do. It's time for you to think positive and be honest. You need to be honest with your wife, okay? Don't shut her out. Hugs GB

ty all for your kind words. i have been up all night just stressing cause i know what i have to do. you are all right. i have to talk to her and at least tell her whats going on in my head.your words have brought some comfort to me. ty