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jesskay
jesskay

I woke up this morning geniunely thinking I was going to end my day in the hospital because I was going to hurt myself somehow. I don't conisder myself suicidal but I'm leaning more towards distructive. Today was the first day I left my house in about a week. I got on a train and went to NYC and just walked around by myself, run away from everything, and clear my head. While I was walking, I passed by a store that sold notebooks so I bought one and decided to start journaling my daily thoughts and set little goals for myself to get out of bed each morning. My little trip today definitely saved me today but although I didn't end up in the hospital tonight, I'm scared that I will soon if I keep feeling this way. 

misleadingsmile
misleadingsmile
Ever been hospitalized before?
jesskay
jesskay
No but it's a thought that has crossed my mind a lot more as of recent
misleadingsmile
misleadingsmile
I promise it's way worse in your imagination...we just started a group for first timers...RN there's only one story - mine - but you're welcome to check it out
https://www.dailystrength.org/group/psychiatric-hospitalization-stories
jstar845
jstar845
I see your tremendous strength in this situation and I greatly appreciate your strength. I know that your life is worth the fight and that you have much worth. Life does become difficult for us at times, but the way you decided to deal with it in a positive way this is what matters. I’m glad that you used going out to walk as coping it led to you to find a store to begin your journaling and setting goals this is another wonderful means to coping to vent your thoughts and feelings. I greatly admire your efforts. I would encourage you to continue to establish healthy coping methods for yourself and to continue to utilize the ones you started. Also, keep positive supports in your life such as, family and friends that you trust. Lastly, if you are seeing a counselor please continue to see him/her as well to talk with and the counselor will be able to help you. Also, we are here to support you here anytime you need us. I wish you the best!
hmmmingbird
hmmmingbird
Life is worth the fight??? I think that's a Pollyanna attitude. My children are grown, successful, and on their own. I see them 3 -4 times a year. They don't "need" me anymore. I'm widowed, retired, alone, have nothing to do with myself and nowhere to go. Felt so bad two days ago that I wanted to call and just talk with someone, anyone, but I have no one. That feeds the depression.