Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Like my title I have been sad and have either cried or wanted to cry everyday for the past few weeks. I just turned 30 and I have been feeling really depressed about that since. I still live with my parents. I have a horrible part time job that I have cried at three times this week. I have no license and no car so I can't go looking for a better job. I am also depressed about the fact that I am overweight and ugly. There are days when I feel pretty but those days are rare. I wish every night when I go to sleep that my whole life would be different and better when I wake up. But its not. I feel so alone invisible and not wanted by anyone. I hate having to rely on so many people for so many things. I hate everything. I hate my job, my living situation, me having been single forever and most of all my job. I want things to change but nothing I do seems to be good enough. I always seem to get crapped on even though I am a good person. Bad things always happen to me. I know everyone has problems, but mine seems to happen more often. I always feel like I am in pain and it seems no one notices. Seems like no one cares.... I feel so very lone...
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I invited Bill to have dinner with me last Sunday. He wasn't willing to drive 7 hours to mid Michigan and teased me with his beautiful ribs!!! So, of course I ate alone and had cedar salmon
In these ages, we cannot rely on a job. We have to find others way to make money, Look at Youtube. There are alot of coaching videos about making money.
I feel no one cares too. But when I meet people, I found some people do care.Try to meet more people. Try a church group.
I teach driving, its something you can take classes to learn!
You probably are invisible: but what to do to become visible? You have to invest in you. You have to achieve the things you want to achieve, that make you feel visible. This will mean you put yourself out there more, and then people will notice you.
This part time job; does it generate any spare money you can save? Spare money means taxis for job interviews. Spare money means cash for classes that will get you a better job. If you have a plan to get out of your fix, you can endure a whole lot more frustration.
I lived for a year next to a guy who never goes out, never goes anywhere, but we talked on the train once coming home. He wanted a girlfriend. He wanted to meet someone and have a girlfriend. He had never had a girlfriend. He was over fifty.
He asked me about my boyfriends. And later when i told him I'd revalued my flat and was going to buy a house and rent out the flat - he asked me to make sure the new tenant was a woman in her forties.... ie like me.
He never asked me out. He never invited me over. He wanted a girlfriend but didn't do anything to get one. And he was over fifty.
If you don't change things they won't change. You're going to have to make some plans, and work towards them. And I promise you: you will see results really really quickly. I thought I would have to get a whole degree before I got a pay rise but I did the work because not doing it guaranteed I'd never get a pay rise. 2 yrs into the job I got a pay rise.
What I'm saying is that if you help yourself, God, the universe, buddha - whoever you believe in - He'll step in, and he'll do the rest.
You don't have to go all the way. You just have to walk in the right direction and the world will help you along.
So what would you like to do first? I think the job is what you hate most, what would you like to do for a living, and what training do you need to do it?
30 is still young and it's too bad so many think of age as a number. I get it's difficult having to live with someone. I highly doubt you are all these horrible things you think you are or that your not.
I rather enjoy being invisible most of the time. If you become happy with yourself the approval of other people might become less significant.
Bill has a great idea: take driving lessons! learn how to drive. Even if you don't buy a car (right away) you will have a VICTORY and you will have a license!
Losing weight is possible, but it takes work. Again, make a commitment to the process and results will follow.
There are lots of goals you can establish for yourself. The key is to do it!
Gentle hugs, I know you can do it!
KEEP THAT IN MIND PLEASE.
U R BEAUTIFUL IN HIS EYES.
HE LOVES U VERY MUCH!
GBU
DRENA B
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PS. I HAVE GAINED A COUPLE UNWANTED POUNDS I DONT WANT. I KNOW HOW U FEEL.