Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I'm not sure where else to post this. Even though it's pregnancy issues, I am very depressed about it. Doesn't help I am clinically depressed anyway, the stress of trying to conceive doesn't help. I'm new here, so any consoling words or advice would be much appreciated. Well, here it goes.
I'm having a rough moment right now. I just watched a video on home birth and I want that so bad. I want a child. Its been 11 months of ttc now, and 4 months last year before a break. That's 15 months total. Nothing. I feel like a failure, like something is wrong with me. Doctors say I'm fine and fertile so I shouldn't have issues. I know there is only a 20% chance every month to get pregnant, and it takes some people a long time. I just feel like I'm not suppose to have a kid. Yet, that's all I yearn for. I have 2 step sons with DH, which I love them like my own. I love them and care for them so much. I just want a child of my own. I'm starting to feel like that's very selfish of me though. Its hard. I see everyone pregnant, having kids, and I just can't. I see people who have health problems, people with 5 or more kids whom I'm jealous of, people who smoke or drink a lot, and they are all pregnant. I do none of that, and here I am, begging every month to show two lines on a test. Damn it.
So that limits my ability to make good comments. I do understand depression, and I can really see how this would make you very sad.
All I can say is to keep working with the medical professionals to resolve this.
Gentle hugs