Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I am at a very difficult time in my life (worse than it has been in a bit). I have depression, I have eating disorder symptoms (still, though not as bad as it was at one point), I self injure (cutting, hair pulling, head banging, scratching, etc), have panic attacks, general anxiety, OCD and I am also having really bad suicidal ideation. I don't have intimate relationships obviously, and I can't do much-although I do go to school (4 classes, 13 credits), and I am in a play right now. So I guess I am doing good. (Although people my age go to school, have a job or two, go out with friends and have fun, all without going insane it seems.)
I still want to not be here (aka, die) though. I also have started smoking, and sometimes take vicodin and drink so I can just sleep. I'm sort of losing it. I also (within the last year) lost my aunt (to brain cancer) and my grandpa (on the operating table). I just can't seem to get it together.
So the question is, when is it time to really work these things out and focus all my attention on it? I have a psychologist and psychiatrist, but things don't seem to be working, it isn't enough. What should I do? When is enough enough?
I still want to not be here (aka, die) though. I also have started smoking, and sometimes take vicodin and drink so I can just sleep. I'm sort of losing it. I also (within the last year) lost my aunt (to brain cancer) and my grandpa (on the operating table). I just can't seem to get it together.
So the question is, when is it time to really work these things out and focus all my attention on it? I have a psychologist and psychiatrist, but things don't seem to be working, it isn't enough. What should I do? When is enough enough?
i'm sorry you're struggling so much right now. good luck!
You've clearly been through an awful lot of pain, recently; compassionate hugs for that. I know what that is like.
As Summer and Mojo said, don't wait for too long before looking into it. The way you sound is a little worrying to me.
People are there to help us. We have to reach out, or we'll never know what good can come of life. And there is good, too.
Hugs, sweetheart.