Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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howlinwolf 08/11/2007

I have been with this man for a year 8 months and he seemed like the answer to my waiting so long for love. He would have been perfect for me, (we even share the same damn birthday!) except for a few MAJOR details; he lies, cheats, is selfish and self-centered and has an extremele bad temper. How do you like that? I asked God why he put this man-- who was exactly what I would have wanted in my life after so long of solitude, while at the same time giving me this man who goes against everything I stand for morally. How do I start over after ending it yesterday ( for the 77th time) when I have absolutely NO social life to take me out of my lonliness? He has people he can hang out with, talk to party with even have sex or more with and I have my car to drive in so I dont go stir crazy. Its not fair and this hurts. I feel like I stuck by him and forgave him for so much and he got used to it. I dont even know how to make sense of it without taking a week to explain. I think he loves me but in some self serving way that does not include caring, support, or monogamy.
I just wanna have a friggin life, man, DAMN!

deleted_user 08/11/2007

Sounds to me he has no respect for you at all and if you keep taking him back he's just going to do the same again because he think's you'll just easily forgive him again. He probably knows how lonely you are without him and that would make him think you NEED him so he thinks he can treat you in whatever way he wants because you will just forgive him so your not lonely. what has happened to your friends? can you not phone an old friend and ask them if they want to do something one day? you'll find another man, my advice would be to never go back with the guy you've been with and show him you can get on alot better without him and you don't need him. i can understand how lonely you must feel but it's only you that can change that. You should try and think of ways to meet new people, i'm sure there will be pleanty of things available in your area to help out with this.

deleted_user 08/11/2007

Hey: I know you are hurting and lonely so I'll go easy on you :) It sounds like this guy has way more negative traits than positive ones. Is there a possibility that you are actually in love with the IDEA of being in love with him? Read your post and pretend you are a strnger reading this for the first time...how could any woman be in love with a lying, cheating, selfish man as this? You deserve SO much better. Find something to do with your time, join a social club, take a class at night school, volunteer at a hospital or nursing home..just do SOMETHING girl to get your mind occupied..you can do it..we are here for you.

deleted_user 08/12/2007

I sooo understand you! My x-husband was exactly like that,I spent 17 years with him,15 actually married, then 4 days before christmas(in 2005)he walked out on me and 3 kids for a 20 year old he met at work(he finally got a job after 13 years). I know what you mean about the lonliness,I got through with the help of a good friend,(guy)that i'm now engaged to,so I feel for you,I'm here if you need to talk, I know it doesn't help in the middle of the night when you wake up alone, but I'm still here

Charity6262 08/12/2007

I am going threw the almost same situation right now with my soon to be ex-husband. He abused me in June and I left him and my step daughter. Now he is in Dallas and I am in hideing from him because he tried to kill me. Don't look back just look forward go to a dance or something and meet someone who will care for you. You deserve it.

deleted_user 08/12/2007

ditch him and find a better guy - seriously. you're better off alone. Treat yourself to something nice tonight - you deserve it!

deleted_user 08/12/2007

two tears in a bucket
then mother f**k it

that's how u get over it. simplistic? maybe. give yourself a time limit for tears..then wipe those tears and move on.

Charity6262 08/12/2007

If you ever need to talk I am here for you. Some places you might could go is a coffie shop, library, Wal-mart (bump into someones shopping cart), a grocery store, or even a club. I guess it just depends on the kind of guy that you want to catch. Cast out and see what you reel in.

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