I need to go back to counseling.

I've been trying to do this on my own for far too long. I've let my pride hold me back for far too long.

In my eyes, it's always been ok for other people to go get help. In fact, I encourage other people to go get help. And I've never ever looked down on anyone else for getting help - quite the opposite, I judge people for NOT getting help when they need it. ...without ever seeming to recognize I am one of those people.

I spent about 6 months in weekly counseling when I was 18 and in college. I made a lot of progress during that time, and I learned a lot of coping strategies then really did and do help.

I've been convinced that, having learned those coping strategies, I no longer need to rely on a counselor to see me through the hard times.

I went to counseling again after the extremely rough break up I had at the end of August 2008. But I only went for 3 sessions and decided I was well enough to get back to doing this on my own.

I'm not well enough.

I never have been.

There are things in my past that I've never bothered to deal with, and that I'm not capable of dealing with on my own.

I need to put away my pride and go get the help I need.

I need to take my own advice - the same advice I've thrown at so many of you, and expected you to take, and told you I was proud of you for taking.

Tomorrow I am going to either call or stop in at my campus wellness centre and make an appointment.

What I need from you guys is to help me stick with this decision.