Hi, I'm sorry to hear about that. I'm struggling with a similar problem, If you want to talk I'm here. Talking to someone always makes me feel better.

Hi Edward. I’m a similar age to you and also have no family or close friends so I understand a bit of what you’re saying. I hope we come out of this ok.

Sorry you are having such a difficult time, helthwise, job wise and having friends who either don't respond or barely do. I know how frustrating it is to try to reach out and get little to no response, especially during these trying times. I, too, am similar in age, 64.
Hope things get better for you....
Sending hugs and support!!

I too, am 60 year old, and am a diabetic.

I hope you can get help financially, I've heard that you can. I've got a couple of shit friends too, but some people can't handle mental illness and I wanna say I hope they never suffer with mental illness, but it'd be nice if they did the smug aholes

I'm not ri h, I'm just carer who has to work BTW, without ppe may I add grrr

Hi Edward,

I can totally relate and feel your pain. I just joined this forum was hoping there is live chat but haven't explored the whole site yet. I also feel very alone and am not getting the support that I need right now from family but they are the same family that has been abusive to me for almost my entire life.

I am living alone renting bsmt and also not getting along with the elder upstairs due to stress over this whole fricken pandemic fears. My sleeping has been horrible, up very late in the morning I sleep probably from like 4am til sometimes 2pm in the aftn. So my hormones out of whack.

I'm isolating even more now, and try to force myself to go out for a walk at least once a day or a drive to get some sunshine and vitamin d. I find when i am in this negative state it seems very isolating and that no one cares even thought that is far from the truth but I also feel angry that friends are not calling and checking on me often. Unmet expectations.

We are all going through are out shi%^I have always been kinda a loner but this whole thing is really affecting me because at least before I could meet friends for coffee and or meet and hang out play games. I am feel very jealous of all the families that are together and at least have people they can talk to or watch movies with while social distancing and the fact the the elder upstairs is afraid of being close to me bothers me sooo much. We have a shared kitchen and I am finding to avoid being around her now I am just going out and eating take out and hurting myself because of her fears.

I have so much unhealed anger and it seems everyone triggers me. Its like I know this is not my true self and only comes from my ego and hurt places but its so hard sometimes to rationalize.

Just before coming on here I was looking for anger help groups and read an article that said one of the reasons we get angry is because of fear and powerlessness and I realized that is a big truth for me, I feel like I have no control over my living situation and feel helpless. I know I deserve better and need a place of my own and fears of not being able to afford hold me limited belief patterns.

Anyways sorry going off on a rant, Edward hang in there. Are you from US or where from? I'm sure there is financial support in your area you can look into in case of any job loss, My friend today told me to apply online for CERB as I live in Canada but not sure if I will qualify. Worse case there's always welfare or other jobs. We have to trust and get out of the fear and yet we are in a time of uncertainty so it is very normal to fear the worse as long as we don't let it get the better of us. Ive been advise to also take online course so many options.

Hang in there and do reach out and find friends online or support groups you can call sometimes we just need to hear a voice esp at this time it is not always good to be totally alone.

Big hugs from another sufferer. May we all one day look back at this pandemic or just another passing time in history.