Please, PLEASE don't do this. Talk to us and tell us what's going on. You can also call 1-800-SUICIDE. You are far too precious to lose. I've been there. The suicidal urges will pass. Hang on!

are you sure they will pass? because i am like this every other day, its not a fun feeling. this is the worst i have felt around the holidays in years.

Yes, they will pass. It takes a little time, but they will pass. God knows how hard it is to wait. Will you tell me why you're feeling this way?

i have recently just got my student loan and my so called friends just use me for money. they never call unless its for money or can i DO something for them. i asked a couple of people to help me with some college work a few months back, i told them i would pay for their work if i passed. well i ended up doing all the work myself or the work they did wasnt acceptable so i refuse to pay them and now they are turning on me. o yea, plus my kids mother is dead and our kids have been adopted out so tell me why i am suppose to be so excited to live again?

I am so sorry for all of your losses. It's no wonder you feel overwhelmed. I lost my fiance' 9 years ago to cancer so I appreciate the pain you must feel when you think about the kids mother. Are you able to see the kids at all? Any sort of visiting rights?

As far as your friends go, they did not do the work they were hired for. I stand with you that they should not be paid. Don't let them bully you. It's their problem and if they're behaving this way they don't deserve your friendship. (In my humble opinion)

Keep posting. I am here listening.

Don't do that, we care, why should we keep fighting if you give up? Kuehlic is right, give it a few days and it will feel better. Don't leave us alone in this world : (

here is the thing, the work one of them gave me was too long, all i asked for was a summery of this chapter and i got 4 pages of stuff i couldnt even begin to break down. second, the other assignment was suppose to be my final paper for a writing class. i was overwhelmed at the time and she said she would take care of it. well i waited 2 weeks and got nothing, so i had to do the work on my own. i submitted 2 revised papers before she sent me even one. also my teacher passed me after my last paper I sent in. i never used her paper at all, never. i told her husband exactly what the deal was and he KNEW IT. now they wanna play this game, well fuck them all. i try so hard to be a good friend and i see how others just ignore my pain and dont care if i shot myself or not. even those social networking sites are bullshit, i try to cry out for help there, to my SO CALLED friends. they just ignore me, like they really give a shit. pisses me off to no end.

Well you won't be ignored here. I am very concerned about you and understand why you would be so pissed. I know I would be. People can be such assholes.

well, we are here to talk to listen to, that is all we can do. Kuehlic gave you a number. I advise you call it. Hugs

i feel stupid calling those hotlines, its like they dont believe u if your feeling down. they dont want to hear about my life, all they want to know if the gun is loaded and pointed at your head

I know but I was advised last week that if you go to a and e there is always a psychiatrist on call. I think it's the same over there. I felt like a turbodick being rushed to hospital. I agree the helplines sometimes don't help. But if you go to emergency and tell them you're about to murder yourself I think they will listen. Can you not section yourself voluntarily?

Well, we care. I've never called a hotline so I don't know what they do and don't offer. Would you consider going to the emergency room? No pressure. Just asking. I want to make sure you're alright. How are you feeling now? Any better by getting some of this off of your chest?

its the same here, unless they see me as a threat to myself they will sit me in a room for hours until they say, your ok go on home. this society has the worst help for people who need it the most. i am getting tired now, probably because of the stress that had me at a all time high and now i am crashing. gonna try and lay down for a while.

Rest well my friend. hugs