ok well that wasnt healthy ! and i think you know this... anyhows, try doing something else - i cant bloody think of anything cuz im tired and couldnt get any sleep so. LOL ill get back to ya. laters x

It sounds like it must of had some kind of release to you. You probably just didnt notice how it did have that effect on you. My advice ... resist the urge. Dont do it again. Its not worth how much its going to effect you in the future. I tell you this because I have been addicted to it for about 7 years now ... and I dont know how to stop, but I remember it starting out soooo simple and soooo small.

I have seen the results from cutting itis noy worth it

Physical pain can draw attention away from internal anguish. Hurting yourself- because you are angry within cn let go of rage- but is not a healthy release and becomes a patterned unhealthy behavior.

Are you angry or numb- or not admitting anger? These are times I have felt like cutting...

I try to do something physical then- clean and organize- something where I can see an immediate result- turn o loud music and storm clean works well for me then...when it is just sad though- hmm- perhaps just wrting is my release- let words tumble onto paper no reason or editing....purge that way

Maybe it's a good thing that you felt no emotional feedback (Other than more pain!). Cutting is a very VERY tricky road to go down and once you start linking the action to your feelings, you're screwed for life. What made you want to cut? I tend to try to sleep when I feel that overwhelmed, though I'm not one to talk about dealing with things...

I am glad that it hurt to be honest. Maybe you wont try it again. People who do this go through terrible times and it just adds to the pain of depression. Be very thankful that you did not get the rush so many others do get.

I understand why you did it. You wanted to try something new to get some relief.

At my worst, I tried alcohol & weed & it just made the depression worse.

For some people it makes no sense because they don't get the reaction from it that they expected. Everyone who has ever cut themselves do it for different reasons. I cut myself to release my violent feelings on myself rather than on someone else. I wanted it to hurt. I wanted to feel that pain.

I'm glad that you don't want to cut yourself again and I understand that you wanted to try it.

Cutting can become extremely addictive. I was "addicted" to it for years if I hadn't hurt myself in a while the skin started to feel strange. Like things were crawling on me.

Do not start down that path...it's a hard habit to break and if it's not helping you then don't even start trying it.