Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I've slid back into self harm for the first time since the summer of 2012. My boyfriend and I got into a huge fight, that was both of our faults, and he left to go cool off. I didn't want to leave, it being so late, so then we fought about that. When he left, I started having a panic attack, but rather than deal with a freaking long panic attack, I SH'd. And I expected to feel upset with myself, doing it again after fight the urges for so long. But no, I felt (and still feel) pretty good. I don't know what it is but it immediately calmed me down enough to study for my big test tomorrow, and I also emailed my professor about possibly making it up (since its now 3:30 in the morning) That is so extremely unlike me. I usually push everything down and deal, but afterward, I was calm enough to ask for help. I don't know if I'll get it, but that's not really the point. I just feel fine, almost good, and very peaceful. Its nice. I haven't felt this way in a while.
When we (I say "we" because I have some experience in this department) hurt ourselves we can end up feeling better because of the endorphins released by our brains in response to the pain, and the physical expression of emotional pain - it's more concrete to deal with. It isn't a healthy way to feel better, and it's not difficult to begin using it more frequently to feel better. Please seek help.