I think it is when we finally find that point where we can be comfortable and at peace with who we are, what we have to offer and being able to open up and embrace when we are finally fortunate enough to find someone who wants, respects , and loves us just as we are. (Just as we do them)

PS I am still looking myself.

Thats the thing i dont know what makes me happy

it takes time being by yourself/with yourself. i had a lot of time by myself as a young adult, even as i was in abusive and PTSD causing relationships? i learned to enjoy solitude - it is so much different than lonliness. it is enjoying being in your own company, being enough, all by yourself.

i didn't know i was learning that at the time and i spent much time in emotional agony from, torture, etc. but, yes, i did become my own friend.

now, i am grateful to be on my own. it is such a surprising thing to me - i never saw myself being single at sixty - but here i am and i'm fine with that. i'm safe from psychos. but it isn't only that or about that for me.

i don't necessarily feel happy, like a big woot woot all the time. it is the absence of drama, the absence of someone ruining a perfectly nice day - these and so much more. my days being up to me.

(((hugs)))