"no one likes me". Did you know that that is a good thing, because there is only one person in this world who SHOULD like you, YOU.

I have no friends and, I'm unaware of who likes me and, guess what? I don't care, because I like me and that is all that is important to me, make it just as important to you, and like me you will be a happy chappy if you do and, how do you do that?

I'm guessing you are a self-judgmental person, most of us depressed people are, through no fault of our own I might add. Well simply stop being self-judgmental, stop negatively labeling yourself because that is another thing we self-judgmental people do. We tell lies to ourselves about ourselves often do we?

One of my classmates was not physically attractive at all. But he went for his passion and is a good public speaker. I think he grew more handsome now. Give yourself space and find what you like. You do best at what you enjoy.

The only thing I can suggest is to stay strong and realize you are not perfect. You can reach out to anyone here and they will support you in any way they can, including me. Life is never a bed of roses because the thorns are too great a challenge. Never under estimate yourself, just enjoy your life as someone who is young and hasn't experienced the challenges of adulthood yet. Time and patience is all that really matters

School is a prison full of hostile idiots. But after school, it gets better. Both because most of them grow out of being retards, and because you develop a sense of who you are, so you develop shields. Don't give up. Remember, other kids do not define "normal". They barely know anything about anything.

I somewhat agree with the other replies. 17 is so young, you have not yet even fully developed, .. either physically or emotionally. This does little for your current problems, but it DOES say that all these things will change for the better in time .... except for the STD. Your health is the most important thing right now, ... so see a doctor RIGHT AWAY and get treatment. Untreated STDs can destroy fertility, and other VERY serious results. If you cannot find treatment, you can (probably) contact COUNTY HEALTH SERVICES in your area. GOOGLE IT. They will diagnose and treat for 'ability to pay' or free. They will also keep the information PRIVATE.

Specific response to the problems you mention .... I don't think you can support yourself at 17 ... so leaving your household now would probably not be a great idea. I don't know what problems are in there, but better to soothe and heal them than to continue the friction or leave. Ask Mom 'how can we get rid of the friction, and create harmony together?" Smooth family life is GREAT, ... chaotic family life is dreadful.

If people at school THINK you are faking depression, ... stop mentioning it to them. They can't fix it anyway ... only you and the medical profession can. Don't give them that to put you down with. It's none of their business anyway.

I 'salute' your boyfriend. Marines are the cream of the crop. I am Army, and I look up to any Marine. He has a TON on his shoulders ... being in boot camp. Try to not heap anything upon those shoulders.

Get physically well, .. look at your 'stuff' with people at school, and withdraw your PERSONAL issues from them. They (again) can't do much for you. Improve things with Mom. I am sure you can do that.

I am telling you that your YOUTH is only a beginning. MUCH changes and will, ... within only a very few years. Work on your stuff, ... ask questions here on DS, and be patient. I am sure a VERY different life is around the corner.

I don't have an STD that is the thing nothing that was said was true and my depression isn't something I like to advertise. I have tried soothing things with my mother but she doesn't want to she said that she doesn't care and she told me that herself I have tried to get closer with my family and none of them want to they are to concerned with themselves and their other kids/siblings. I know not to heap anything on his shoulders and I haven't no matter how many times be begs me to tell him what is wrong because he sees right through the fake happy that is in my letters. You don't know what I go through on a daily basis I have the money to support myself I have a job and I already have a place to go to.

Hi there, it seems that you have so many things on your mind and you are having a hard time processing them. It might be helpful not to process all of them at the same time. You wouldn't be able to cope as you also haveto cope with various emotions.

If you have not seen a counsellor or therapist, please consider talking to one soon. Your brain is running overhaul everyday, you need to wind it down a bit. It's really hard to function when your mind cannot stop thinking. Praying for you. Take care.