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I am done with life. One day I will be at peace. I won't worry about what it is I'm being punished for and why I can't seem to come around. I won't struggle with the frustration of not being able to do anything in my life to benefit me, like make myself better mentally. physically. I don't care anymore that people hate me. I don't care whether or not my mom or dad hates me/loves me. I don't care about anything anymore. I don't want a miracle and I don't want anyone coming into my life. I don't care if I die the worst death. I deserve it. I just can't wait until I am at peace. I am so glad that the human body cannot live forever.
I don't "deserve" a horrible death, anymore than I deserved
a horrible life. And neither do you. I have never cared what
anyone thought of me, it isn't my business after all. I too am
glad that the human body wears out. I hope mine doesn't
last much longer, life is absolutely hideous. I hope you can
find a shred of peace before too long. Death isn't easy to
come by. So I hope you can find a way to ease the pain
till that day comes. Hugs
Thanks for the reply. Sorry you're feeling this way also. No one I know understands how I can feel this way about life. I guess because life is supposed to be this great experience. I think they really know how I could not want to live, but they just won't admit it. They know my life is useless, and that I am worthless, so I know they understand why I want to die.
I see what you mean about not caring what others think. I never have either, until people, family started treating me bad and telling me I was not normal. I had no one tell me I was ok the way I am. So, at that point, then yes, I did care what others thought because if I was doing something wrong, I wanted to fix it. Well, I tried doing just that, but they still treat me the same way. I can never do anything to make things better, So, I'm done trying.
Death, I think is actually easier to come by, especially if one is desperate to escape. I know how I am, and I know that I would do anything to get away from this life, where I have no control and I have to be seen and looked as if I'm a kid, never allowed to grow into a woman. It is pure agony. It is hell. I could make it had I not had to go through what I did. But, the people that hold the power over me are not letting go, and eve if and when they do, I'll never gain any confidence to live.
I hope you too can find some peace. I know that's all I want and I am so glad that I get to die one day.
Take care. Hugs