Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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teddybear973
teddybear973
I started a class called Life skills and after only one class I feel like my heart is an open wound and I want to numb it somehow. I have been off my meds for 2 years but tomorrow, my Mom wants me to go see the doctor and get a refill. I hate that feeling like you are exhausted after work because you have had to keep up a front and that is hard work. I hate the fact that I sit at home and replay conversations and realize just how socially retarded I am. I feel like I just don't know how to interact with people anymore. I feel worthless and don't like digging up all the pain. I know that I have to deal with it and quit stuffing it, but it is too much. I sometimes feel as if it would be easier for me and everyone around me if I would just leave. I am feeling extremely crappy tonight and also can't sleep which doesn't help. I am dreading facing tomorrow.
deleted_user
deleted_user
Yes i know how you feel, i have literally got nothing to say to anyone not even my partner, i never know what to do i fumbble around pretending to be doing something just so i am not just sitting like a zombie, i feel like someone has taken away my brain. I am only happy when i sleep then i feel safe, god what is wrong with me, if someone tries to talk to me i freeze go panicky ugh this is a nightmare
deleted_user
deleted_user
I can feel with you. I do feel like I will never socialize again. I have turned away from everyone who causes arguments or trouble long ago. I thought getting away from everyone would help me, but putting myself in this stage of isolation makes it worse.
I hope you feel better and realize that every day is a fresh start. It took me 33 years to learn this. it feels good
deleted_user
deleted_user
Hey hope your feeling better. I do the same thing sometimes. I will come home and sit there thinking to myself OMG i cant believe I said that, how socially inept can one person be. But something that makes me feel better is the fact that with most ppl they have forgotten what you said an hour or less after youve said it.

Everyone makes these mistake, we just tend to be a little harder on ourselves for it.

Take care