Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I feel like ice on the inside. Trying to cope with the loss I know I face. It was my decision, but one I HAD to make. Fear sets in. Pain drills deeper, reaching the core of my very being. I smile on the outside, I put on a mask and fake out the rest of the world pretending there's nothing wrong. When inside all I want to do is cry, and fall apart never to be seen again. Yearning, wishing for the past to have been different, prayers going unanswered and ignored to start. Hopes dashed against the rocks of reality and cast into a sea of forgotten dreams. I am set adrift by myself for eternity... Fear sets in.
Alone again inside, too afraid to share everything with even those closest to me. I cannot. Fear sets in. Im on a path to self destruction and I know that, change is inevitable. Like the ever changing tide within that sea of forgotten dreams. Never to remain still, never to grow smaller, always to expand, and harbor even more dashed dreams. Fear sets in.
I cry myself to sleep again, because I cannot help it. The loss felt from within is the icy dagger protruding from my chest. Carving out my heart for all it does is ache. Fear sets in. I fear the future now for all is still unknown, though I fear not living through it for it is an adventure all its own. But even when I'm older I shall always look back and remember in the times of pain and when Fear was finally cast back out into that sea.
My heart has been torn from my body, thrown into a blender and then thrown to sharks. I feel empty, betrayed, abandoned and used. Used sticks out the most of all. Years of thinking I could trust someone, to be thrown back at me. Making me feel as if he went through me to get to her... or she befriended me only to get to him. Betrayed... How can I trust now? I cant. She will hurt so badly another friend of mine... just to hurt me, and be with him. KNOWING whats shes doing. I know now, I cannot trust people. People are evil at heart, a toxic fucking diesase not to be trusted.
Sorry guys. I obviously don't mean every human, but to those who manipulate, use, lie and backstab others... are nothing but diseases.
Alone again inside, too afraid to share everything with even those closest to me. I cannot. Fear sets in. Im on a path to self destruction and I know that, change is inevitable. Like the ever changing tide within that sea of forgotten dreams. Never to remain still, never to grow smaller, always to expand, and harbor even more dashed dreams. Fear sets in.
I cry myself to sleep again, because I cannot help it. The loss felt from within is the icy dagger protruding from my chest. Carving out my heart for all it does is ache. Fear sets in. I fear the future now for all is still unknown, though I fear not living through it for it is an adventure all its own. But even when I'm older I shall always look back and remember in the times of pain and when Fear was finally cast back out into that sea.
My heart has been torn from my body, thrown into a blender and then thrown to sharks. I feel empty, betrayed, abandoned and used. Used sticks out the most of all. Years of thinking I could trust someone, to be thrown back at me. Making me feel as if he went through me to get to her... or she befriended me only to get to him. Betrayed... How can I trust now? I cant. She will hurt so badly another friend of mine... just to hurt me, and be with him. KNOWING whats shes doing. I know now, I cannot trust people. People are evil at heart, a toxic fucking diesase not to be trusted.
Sorry guys. I obviously don't mean every human, but to those who manipulate, use, lie and backstab others... are nothing but diseases.
You did it well.
In time, you will heal, and be much wiser.
You are turning from a child to an adult.
A child trusts with all of their heart and with complete dependence, as their needs have to be met completely by their caregiver.
As an adult, you have to learn to trust differently. You have to learn to have an open mind and an open heart, yet at the same time guard yourself from predators.
You are learning well.