Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Just got back from vacation on Sunday and this week just might kill me. Vacation was exhausting. It was only a week, but that's a long time to spend with over 50 family members.
Now I'm in my last week of class for the summer (apart from 1 exam in August). By Saturday I need to have 2 major assignments and one posting done. By Sunday, a 12 page essay and 2 weeks of postings (a total of 6 postings). Haven't really started any of this, and just thinking about it makes me completely stressed.
I met with a neurologist today about my EEG results from a month ago. They've finally found something, after 4 years of tests. It's a possibility (not for sure of course) that my dizziness/memory/concentration problems are caused by minor seizures. I am now officially back on meds, after having been med free since December. And this is just yet again hoping it might help with at least 1 of my problems, possibly.
Also met with my counselor today. Couldn't talk to her at all. My body just completely shut down. This has happened before, so she's used to it, but it bothers me. I want the help, but my body won't let me get it.
I feel like I'm going to shatter into a million pieces if I don't keep holding myself together. I can't think, or feel, and I'm running out of strength to hold on.
*POSSIBLE TRIGGER*
On top of it all, I've been having horrible urges to cut. I haven't, but I've found myself searching for pictures or videos of other people s.h. in hopes to keep the urges away awhile longer. This is new to me (the pictures/videos) and I thought it was helping, but really it's only making things worse.
I just don't know what to do.
Now I'm in my last week of class for the summer (apart from 1 exam in August). By Saturday I need to have 2 major assignments and one posting done. By Sunday, a 12 page essay and 2 weeks of postings (a total of 6 postings). Haven't really started any of this, and just thinking about it makes me completely stressed.
I met with a neurologist today about my EEG results from a month ago. They've finally found something, after 4 years of tests. It's a possibility (not for sure of course) that my dizziness/memory/concentration problems are caused by minor seizures. I am now officially back on meds, after having been med free since December. And this is just yet again hoping it might help with at least 1 of my problems, possibly.
Also met with my counselor today. Couldn't talk to her at all. My body just completely shut down. This has happened before, so she's used to it, but it bothers me. I want the help, but my body won't let me get it.
I feel like I'm going to shatter into a million pieces if I don't keep holding myself together. I can't think, or feel, and I'm running out of strength to hold on.
*POSSIBLE TRIGGER*
On top of it all, I've been having horrible urges to cut. I haven't, but I've found myself searching for pictures or videos of other people s.h. in hopes to keep the urges away awhile longer. This is new to me (the pictures/videos) and I thought it was helping, but really it's only making things worse.
I just don't know what to do.
I am taking online classes also so I know its not easy to keep focused but I started making lists of what I was needing to get done each week and it helped a lot, hopefully it can help you a little bit.