I have read many of your posts and know that you are in a very difficult situation. I wish I had answers for you, especially since you have kids, but when I was where you are now, as in ready to end it, I did a lot of praying. And I made it. Im alive which is pretty much a miracle. So I am sending prayers your way. And maybe you can say a few for yourself as well. What do you have to lose that you haven't already lost?

Please don't! We are here for you. Many times I told myself it's not worth living if I just experience more pain, but there is so much more. You have kids to raise and a life that they depend on. Stay alive for your kids, let them grow up in your hands. Hugs

Hey don't! We are here for you. Don't worry. Everything will be alright. Will remember you in my prayers.

I am so sorry that you are in so much pain! I have not words to change how you are feeling. But here is what I was taught to ask if someone is having those thoughts: Do you have a specific plan for how you would end your own life? If so, do you have the means to carry out your plan? If the answer to either or both of these questions is "yes," then please, please, please call a suicide hotline. Here's the national suicide prevention hotline number: 1-800-273-8255.
Here is their website: https://suicidepreventionlifeline.org/
Even if your answer to those questions is not "yes," it might be worth calling them just to check in and ask how you can get through this.

Wrote a suicide note tonight. It's becoming real!

Don't do this to your kids. They will suffer for it their whole lives if you do this to them. If you really love your girls find a way to help yourself. Stop giving up. Stop planning your death. And find a way to start to live again. Go back in to the hospital again if you have to. Ask about ECT's.

I don't have guardianship of my youngest and I'm pretty sure in about 2 month time my oldest will be the same. So what to live for. I'm tired of trying to live.

If you give up your kids and they are adopted the day will come when they are adults that they will want to know who their real mom is. They will look for you and look for you and look for you and what will they find? That their mother killed herself? Is that what you want to leave them with?

They are not gonna be mine anymore so what's the point.

I just read that suicide is the ultimate abandonment.

I am praying for you I know how awful depression is I struggle with these feelings every single day <3 I will give you a hug, I'm so sorry you have to go through this!!

Sending more prayers and continuing to suggest that you pray for yourself as well.

The only one that can help you is God. Call out and tell Him you can't do this alone and that you want Him to intervene on your behalf. Hold on...the answer is on it's way. Proverbs 3:5,6

Been calling out to him for month and tho it has help a lil it's hasnt help enough to help me enough.

I'm not saying this is easy because it's not, I've been separated for eight years lost my mother and had neck injury that required surgery. After surgery I lost my job of sixteen years and just found out that I have to have surgery again. I have no family around so I have nothing left to lean on but God.. This is no easy road but I could not have walked it alone. I'm here to say that I still struggle and am lonely but if it wasn't for God I don't know where I'd be. I pray you'll find some peace in all of this because I know it's hard for you. I'm here if you need someone to talk to. Take care and never give up. I believe in you and you are more precious and are of great value in this world. God loves you and so do I. ❤