Sorry you are struggling so much. Are you seeing a mental health professional for help? If not, I suggest that you talk to a psychiatrist who can make a diagnosis and determine if medication is necessary. The doctor will also refer you to a therapist or a counselor to talk to to help you to cope with what you are struggling with. You are not alone. Many of us in this group feel the same way. I pray that you will get some help and get better.

Everyone in this group understands your pain my friend. It is exhausting to beat yourself up every minute of every day. Constantly wondering, hoping, praying, when will this end? Will I ever feel better? I'm 47 and like you have been battling this since childhood. Are you taking meds? Please talk to your doctor. You don't need to live like this nor do you deserve to. Know that you are never alone in this fight. We all understand here your pain on this site.

Thank you for sharing. That is yet another reason to Praise The Lord, because He carries you on to be a great testimony to us in need. We forget that our very life can be a discipleship to others. An average person would be amazed at what you have endured, yet you don't give up so The Lord can use your life to encourage others. I would be one of those others. I am sorry for your suffering, but very grateful for your strength and faith. You are in my prayers. Thank you for being a blessing. God Bless you.

The Good Lord put you here for a reason! Cast your cares unto Him, and he will help you. Listen to that small still voice in you that keeps you going; because thats the light of the Lord trying to break through. It's still there; optimism and happiness is still in your reach. Ask and you shall receive! I'm praying for you, and I know you're going to get there. (:

Suggestion:

"I do believe in God."

As you then know, He is the Father, the Son, and the Holy Ghost. We have been asked and TOLD to reach Him, go through Jesus Christ.

Soooo, ... at a quiet time, ... tell Him to deliver you from all this pain. Tell Him you ask in the name of Jesus Christ.

Mean it .... and see what happens. See what you feel like from the moment you say Amen.

When I was at the end of my rope ... this is what I did. Things have been MUCH better ever since. You can do this any time. He LOVES to hear from us. He LOVES to be THANKED. If nothing happens, .. find out what else to do in order to contact Him. The more you do, the more you get. He WANTS an association with you. A frequent one. Start out ... however you wish.

So sorry you are struggling. Depression can bring on a lot of emotion. Please continue holding on to your faith. God sees and knows your pain. It may sound trite but every season has its purpose. There is a reason, and it can be so difficult to wait on God's timing to know why we have to endure some things. Sometimes we don't know who is watching how we continue through the pain. But by simply doing and going we may be encouraging others. This is a good place to talk with like folks. There is also a depression text line available at 741741 with trained advocates. May God provide you with strength and peace through this.