Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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DJfromColorado 02/21/2010

My trouble has been building for several months. Job, car, house all equal major stress. Then a close friend went into the hospital, icu, the whole nine yards. He's out, but still not getting the care he needs. I am so stressed out, how much more can I take. Today I have felt....on edge? I don't want to see any doctors, have a mini vacation in less than two weeks. Can I hold on? Is this stupid? Yes I have been diagnoised with depression three years ago, and hospitlized due to thoughts of suicide (not having any yet).

To add to the stress, I turn 31 tomorrow, and I feel like my life is one big pile of crap. Plus I doubt any family or friends will take notice. I HATE LIFE.

Any advice?

deleted_user 02/21/2010

Well, Happy early Birthday! I know I am not family and not exactly a friend, but I do mean it with all sincerity.

A cyber cupcake for your b-day (if it shows up -->) [[]]- ~

I can understand when you say you are on edge. Like if just one more thing were to happen....that would be it! Yes you can hold on and no it is not stupid at all.

Big hugs from me and support that you make it through! =D

deleted_user 02/22/2010

I take deep breaths when I am stressed.. and medication. Perhaps you might consider calling your doctor and telling him/her that you feel you are on the edge. It's nothing to be ashamed of, and sometimes a mild medication can help. Some of us have have high levels of anxiety, and life become overwhelming to us at times. I am sorry that you've had such a painful history in the past and hope you can avoid becoming hospitalized by seeking a doctor's help now. I'm especially sorry that you look at your birthday as an unhappy day. I try to count my blessings when I am feeling bad. It helps me. I'm sorry if I didn't help you, but I do care. I hope you post again soon and let us know how you are doing.. :-)

DJfromColorado 02/22/2010

Thanks both of you.

Sandi, I think it just that I look at my life and wish i had accomplished more by now. My birthday just happens to fall in the middle of this storm. There may be more to it, but not now. Its my birthday after all.

In relation to calling doc, I don't want a ping on med record, i am in the middle of a health insurance app.

Beyond excess, we here in ds are all family and friends. I feel better when I come here than picking up the phone and calling family. My own mother right now is more concerned with her own problems and goes off (she lives 1536 miles away). My aunt who i live with is also stressed and doesn't see my issues. So ds is my outlet. I never expected to get these kind words, and so appreciate them. Sigh, now if only I could sleep.

deleted_user 02/22/2010

What have you tried for sleep? Besides the over the counter stuff like excedrin PM, there is a natural supplement that works for some called melatonin. Have you tried that? Its a natural hormone that your body produces, sometimes we just don't make enough.

Sleep is probably one of the most important ingredients of any good treatment program for depression. So I'm sending some zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz's to make my contribution to a good night's sleep.

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