I understand. I feel the same. It is awful.

Yes it is

Hope you feel better.

i am feeling the same way..at least it is good to know someone else is out there trying to deal with similar feelings.

The numb feeling persists with depression. I just started treatment for it and anxiety with Zoloft. Praying it works. Peace to you. How are you managing your thoughts and feelings?

I'm not managing them well. I'm overwhelmed and I need help. I'm scared because I can't control myself anymore and I need somebody. I can't go through this alone anymore.

Is there anyone you can talk to like your parents or a friend?

I'm not very close with my parents. And I've tried talking to a friend but I don't like making them upset

I know the feeling you really need to tell your parents depression is a serious condition wishing you good thoughts bc I know it is very hard to deal with these emotions

My parents know I have the issue. I just don't vent and talk to them. Thank you all for best of wishes

Have you tried group therapy? I was reluctant at first but I'll never forget when the director of the group session had asked us 'who here has racing thoughts' and almost everyone raised their hands, I felt like I wasn't alone anymore. I wasn't the only person in the world feeling the way I'm feeling. Finding a professional to talk to is also a process, some people find it on their first try, others it may take a while, but when I found the therapist that I could open up to, it was like the skies parted, I understood my feelings so much more and how to cope properly with them.
I'm not perfect, I still have my issues, I have numbness and depressive episodes but they're shorter and occur less often.
I hope you feel better soon!!

Walk
Do you have somewhere safe to walk?
A gym might be too hard to go to.
I couldn't go in to a gym right now.
I fled a restaurant last night, too busy, too loud, too many people. Didn't even recognize my friend, who was wearing a bright orange shirt. Couldn't see him with all that going on, walked out.
Couldn't go back in.
Walking helps me get my brain healing.
Walking helps me focus on nature, the birds signing, the quiet.
I wear head phones, the ones that quiet when I get like this if I have to ride the bus
Can't drive, well shouldn't.
I wear hooded sweatshirts and pull the hoods up so I can't see things on the side.
It's all too much.
I don't do medication except for extreme situations.
Try physical exercise if you can't walk. Anything that makes you sweat gets the endorphins, the feel good chemicals your body produces going and you will feel less depressed.
Exercise as much as you need to.
When I have stressful phone calls where you end up on hold forever, I put it on speaker phone and do knee lifts, leg lifts, jumping jacks and it really makes me deal with the stress.
The stress makes me depressed.
Everything is so hard
So I get physical
It gets easier.
Will you try that for me?
See if it helps you and let me know.
It helps me right away.
I hope it helps you right away

Have you talked to your school counselor? They may be able to get you some help or they might talk with your parents to inform them how serious your problem is.

Hi all~ I have been working with my school social worker and I work out a lot each day to try and stay active. I am able to stay active but it doesn't fill the ache or numbness inside. I am not sure what to do. I am a volleyball player and try to do things that make me happy, but I'm just not interested. It's hard to get out of bed