Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I am having such a terrible time right now. I can't find anything that makes me want to keep going, except that I know I have to. (I have 4 precious cats and can't abandon them.)
But this emptiness, this aloneness, this isolation is pure hell. I've spent the whole day without talking/seeing another person. Too many days like this. 24 hours and nothing to do. Nothing interests me; I don't want to leave my house and I'm actually beginning to worry about how I will manage another day being this miserable, much less the rest of my life.
And I don't know what I can possibly do to change what's going on. My coach thinks I need to put myself in social situations. I volunteered a couple of times,and tried to relate to some of the people, but all I did was show up for an hour and then leave to come back and be alone again. It did not help and I felt even more like an outsider........
I find it uncomfortable, if not impossible to be around other people because I'm so depressed and find myself hardly able to speak, so I avoid social situations. As a result, I have no support group and no friends and no one to talk to when I'm like this. Like many people who comment on this site, people around me either don't understance or would rather not deal with me when I'm in such a depressed state.
This is not a good situation and each hour that goes by seems to be more painful. I do not know how I will be able to continue taking care of myself (and my pets) if I do not make some money soon, so that hangs over my head 24/7 and adds to the depression and vice versa.
I know no one can change my situation and I don't even know if writing this has helped me, but I'm hoping someone is "listening" so I don't feel so alone today.
But this emptiness, this aloneness, this isolation is pure hell. I've spent the whole day without talking/seeing another person. Too many days like this. 24 hours and nothing to do. Nothing interests me; I don't want to leave my house and I'm actually beginning to worry about how I will manage another day being this miserable, much less the rest of my life.
And I don't know what I can possibly do to change what's going on. My coach thinks I need to put myself in social situations. I volunteered a couple of times,and tried to relate to some of the people, but all I did was show up for an hour and then leave to come back and be alone again. It did not help and I felt even more like an outsider........
I find it uncomfortable, if not impossible to be around other people because I'm so depressed and find myself hardly able to speak, so I avoid social situations. As a result, I have no support group and no friends and no one to talk to when I'm like this. Like many people who comment on this site, people around me either don't understance or would rather not deal with me when I'm in such a depressed state.
This is not a good situation and each hour that goes by seems to be more painful. I do not know how I will be able to continue taking care of myself (and my pets) if I do not make some money soon, so that hangs over my head 24/7 and adds to the depression and vice versa.
I know no one can change my situation and I don't even know if writing this has helped me, but I'm hoping someone is "listening" so I don't feel so alone today.
as an example that you're going to go to the Senior Center 2 times
this month, or go to the park and walk, even if just for 5 minutes - you have to take steps to improve things or they can't possibly improve. If you can't afford therapy, or don't want it, there are thousands of self-help books, and someone has been in a similar situation, and has written about what saved them. There is a solution to every problem and I hope you find what changes things for you in a positive way.
Sending good thoughts.
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"Rule your mind or it will rule you." Buddha
I agree with others to reach out to someone you know. Or, call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org). It's 1-800-255-8255. I have called before. It connects you to local crisis centers who can help by listening, or connect you to resources if you need someone to come get you for emergency help.
I have had those feelings many times. I am very grateful that I've survived thus far. Every time, I have realized after the fact that things are not exactly as bad as they felt during the worst of it. I hope you keep posting to the board. I'll be looking for you.