Depression Support Group

Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.

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chellerenee 01/14/2013

Need support here more than anything. I have went through some life changes; divorce, change in living environment, a post divorce relationship that is not going to be what I need it to be. And I am to the point where I don't care if I am alive or not. I am not suicidal, I would never take my own life. But I don't see how my life is ever going to be happy, due to a few reasons, but these things are beyond my control. They are never going to change, so I am never going to be happy. So my general thoughts are what is the point of me even being here. I don't have any kids that would miss me if I died, or a spouse. After the initial sadness, I am sure life would go on as normal for my friends and family. So these are the thougts rolling around in my head today, and for a while now.

reddog201 01/14/2013

wow that is sad . i am feeling the exact same way. i left my wife last june and am going through a divorce right know. how do you do it? i dont have any kids either and just like you no one would miss me either. i guess this makes two of us anyway.

chellerenee 01/15/2013

Hi Reddog, I am sorry about your situation too. I guess how I do it is to take one day at a time. I am through the divorce emotional process, but find myself now in place I am not happy in. I do all the things you are supposed to do, keep busy, do things with friends, stay active, and while I find these activities fun, they do not necessarily make me happy. Nothing is right now.

heretic 01/15/2013

You are setting yourself up to fail. Deciding you are never going to be happy pretty much ensures that you won't be. I'm not happy but I'm not suicidal any more either. It doesn't have to be one or the other. One thing is certain, life always changes, you can't know what it will bring. I'm sorry you've had some sad losses, but the pain of your death would remain with those you leave behind. I'm glad you'd never take your own life - now all you have to do is decide to live it the best way you can. Have you talked to a doctor about how you're feeling? Meds helped me a lot. Big Hugs

deleted_user 01/16/2013

I feel that I think about suicide everyday, I never take it serious, but everyday,,,,
I lost my wife last year to cancer...she was only 38 I am 45 we do not have kids, I own my own business we struggle, we were uninsured when she first got cancer, we were able to get insureance later after obama care kicked in, but we were already 10s of thousands in dept
after she passed my life was a series of groundhog day cituations when I did the same thing every day,,, drove to work , mopped the floors, cooked for people placed orders , drove home and cried....
like I said in the beguining, I think about suicide every day,,,but it never added up, it never seemed that was really the solution
then there was this two week time fram that it all made sence, not sure why but it did seem to be that the end of my life would be the best solution.....it was a scary appifany (not sure on spelling) when I was reall almost comfortable with the idea.....but I would like to thank my ability to procrastanate everyting that I did not end up doing it,,,,and like most feelings of suicide...it passes...today , I still cry'
it has been 10 monts since my wife died.
I still have my business , my wife not longer drives in with me to work
but I do feel that I can find some kind of balance and inner happiness
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