I understand what you are going through...life has just gotten to the point where everything is unbearable and your friends just think you are playing the victim or you just complain too much. I've come to realize recently if your friends are like they aren't your real friends. It's never too late to make new friends are start over with your old ones if they are willing to listen. I know that everything seems like it's falling apart for you right now but ending your life isn't the answer. It will leave more questions unanswered and it's not something that would solve anything. I'm in the same place as you, I wanted to kill myself or hurt myself so badly but I stopped myself because doing that wouldn't solve anything. It wouldn't make me feel any different it's just something else to hide from everyone.

My best suggestion is try to find something that would take your mind off everything. take a really long shower/warm bath, go for a walk to clear your mind, listen to music as loud as it can go. Something that will drown out that voice inside saying you aren't good enough or everyone hates you. Because it's just a voice in your head it's not real nor is it true. You were put here for a purpose and you aren't done yet.

Hugh :) I'm here if you need to talk, just message me :D

Ted, please try to hang in there buddy. I think the pain will lessen for you at some point.