I am feeling the same way right now. It's as if everyday is a struggle. I don't have any words of wisdom but wanted you to know I read your post and I care. hugs

first, be sure to talk to your dr about this... if the meds arent helping, your dr can try different doses or different meds and there may be a solution there. you are your own best advocate when it comes to talking to your dr's... if you dont tell them whats going on, they just dont know theres a problem to fix. squeaky wheels get the grease, so, squeak!

we are not born with purpose. we have to supply that ourselves. we each learn to love different things in life, and we have to pick one of those things and make that our purpose.

if you cant find anything you love right now, its ok... you might soon.

setting small goals for yourself and achieving them will help. it doesnt matter what kind of goal it is, but it has to require at least a little bit of effort. be careful not to make those goals too big tho.

for instance...

if you absolutely love going to the icecream shop and getting your favorite shake... dont set the goal to be 'getting the shake' cause youve skipped a lot along the way. set your first goal as, getting your shoes on. the next one as, getting out the door. then up to the corner. then inside the door. and etc.

this is a pretty silly and simplistic example but i had to use one like that cause i dont know anything about your particular situation. you can set a real goal following the same format tho.

welcome to the site, and please keep posting here... you'll find lots of people who care and want to help, and may even find some who are able to help as well

*hugs*

youre not in this alone... lots of us have been exactly where you are now (well ok not exactly, cause we're all different people... but close enough!)

Thanks for reply's. I have had similar suggestions about starting with small steps. I think that is a good idea. I am using that today. I just wish I could wake up one morning and not feel the pain. I will see my psych doctor next week. I am not sure there is anything I have not tried, but I continue to ask for help. We have tried some new things lately. I think there may be things I can love, but depression gets in the way. Then that's where baby steps start. It seems to become a vicious circle. I am starting with a new therapist soon, so I may get some help there as well. Thank you

i know exactly how you feel

you start to make these grand plans for making baby steps and youre just about to get up and do it and then depression pokes its ugly nose into the conversation and just shakes its head... and you slump back into the chair and say screw it.

thats when its time to (figuratively) kick depression in the shin and walk right on past it.

it may sound silly... specially since its a metaphore... but, somehow, it actually works.

*hugs*

HI ! I understand, more than you can imagine.
10 minutes ago I had my hands on a loaded gun ,
but I wanted to help someone before I ( was gone)
Imagine that, we are all creatures - of compassion and caring( like it or not)
So I am still here,
My wife no longer wants my LoVE , so it go'es to thse that REALLY, need it NOW!!!!!!!!!!

If I had only known 26 yrs ago ( I love MY,SON DAUGHTER -in law DAUGHTER , AND BEEEEEUUUUUTIIIFFFUUULLLL ,,, GRANDAUGHTER (ZOE) She willSAVE - ME !!!!!!!!!

THIS I KNOW !!!!!!
LOVE TO ZOE !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I often feel like I have no purpose, while everyone around me is grabbing hold of life and living every day to the fullest. I am so jealous of these people. All I want is to be driven and energetic about life. I want to take chances and create opportunities for myself instead of just waiting to die. Before depression, I was a very passionate person with lots of energy and love. But now motivation is so hard to come by.

I'm determined to let my inner passionate side come out. I think a good first step is to learn to play music. A creative outlet can be therapeutic, I think. I want to add activities into my life that aren't mindless (tv/sleep are my big ones too). I need to rip that f***ing cord out of the wall.