Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
You must go.
Please.
No, your therapist can't make you do anything. It's always your choice. I can tell you I feared hospital too for years until I had little choice. And it was fine, no stress at all in fact, lots of others like me to talk to and we didn't ever talk about depression. Strange that but not really as we all knew basically why we were there so had other topics to discuss.
If you are feeling as bad as your post indicates you need more help than you have right now.
Life is boring and tedious for most of us most of the time but we need to find our way out of a continual pattern of such by getting help, treatment that is relevant to our condition.