Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Hello
I’m a husband and father. I have two teen boys. My mother and mother in law lives with us. We have a full well rounded family dynamics in my house. My wife and I are the parents of everyone and we run two companies I also work part time at ups and sell real estate. I just feel like I’m often failing my wife and everyone in the family. I constantly upset my wife by saying the wrong thing disrespecting her, trying to make her be submissive like I’m the man you are the women through my actions. I swear I don’t feel or think this way. I will think I’m saying the right thing but it’s never the right thing. I’ve been the thoughts of suicide I don’t want to do it and I know it’s not right. It’s onlu when I’m feeling so low and the urges have gotten stronger with age. Just voices in my head telling me I’m worthless because I can’t get it right and I’m slowly starting to agree. I’m sorry for throwing up my life. This is not to make my wife or anyone look bad. They are wonderful and great. Im the one that has issues. I ruin almost everything I lay my eyes on , much less touch it seems. I’m sorry not even sure the question I’m asking.
Do you take meds for anything? Do you have a physical illness too? These things all have an effect on your mood. I'm diabetic and have been sick for a long time (getting better ) but the illness makes me a raving bitch and I can't always help it. Just a thought. Remember the good things about yourself, and pat yourself on the back for those things. Hugs.
How does your wife feel about that?
If you really have issues then you need to find out what they are and start dealing with them. As you said you're 'slowly starting to agree'; in other words things'll just get worse and worse. You may need to see a therapist.
Most of your post indicates a very high quality person. You do a hell of a lot for a hell of a lot of people.
Many, many people including me would be devastated if you ever harmed yourself.
I STRONGLY advise you to seek marriage counseling ... even if it is just you at first. A professional needs to know what you are going through and help you. That which you describe is not something a person could work out ... all on their own. It is all way too subjective for that.
Get yourself some pro help, my man. You don't deserve this much negativity ... and to be clear, ... I am not sure YOU are the problem .... but I am not a pro either.