Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
everyone leaves me
Don't get me wrong---love is great---but not when it is toxic or one-sided. Try and find out what is best about you, alone...and then, you will have more to bring to a relationship...and hopefully, find someone who appreciates those wonderful, unique things about you!
I must be weird. When I was young, little even, all I dreamt about was being alone. Alone and happy. Alone and at peace. Alone and confident. I think you have to get THERE, before you can really give to someone else.
Just my humble opinion---hope this helps---
Perhaps distracting yourself would help...a new activity...find people with shared interests, and give them lots of space; no one wants to be rushed, or forced into friendship. Become friends with yourself, and people will sense that!
But try not to think of it in such a negative way, or all you'll end up with is pain, sweetie. You're awfully young to be talking in such extreme terms. Try to concentrate on the potential for growth, maybe you and he can remain friendly---who knows???