REPOST: In this world we have 2 choices: keep going or end our life by whatever means. The last choice is appalling to even think about.


My story starts out 3 years ago. My wife and I had a pretty good life. But I started feeling weird, my muscles were getting weaker. It got to the point getting in a car was tough w/o assistance. Then, my back started to hurt, so painfull I couldn't stand it.


In 2016, I was in even worse shape. And, out of the blue, my wife left me w/o warning. I couldn't take care of myself and had no choice but to go into a nursing home. So, I went from walking, to using a walker, to a wheelchair.


In the space of three years, my life evaporated before my eyes. BUT NEVER, EVER did I ponder suscide. Life is too precious And there would be people that love me and would miss me.


To have something to look forward to, I made a goal last winter, to be discharged from the nursing home and be able to watch the leaves through our front window this fall. Well, it happened. I didn't quit, didn't give up, was discharged in August. And the leaves were beautiful.


If you've been betrayed and hurt by a spouse, I can relate. If life makes you feel like a failure, again, I hear ya. BUT, GOD doesn't look at you that way. He loves you and wants to help. GOD KNOWS HOW YOU FEEL. Really. he does! In your saddest times, God carries you. just like the footprints poem.


Don't give up!!! KEEP GOING!!!! God will get you through anything, I should know. THERE IS HOPE!!!! Just think, when you wake up tomorow morning, God will give you a brand new day. Yesterday is gone forever.


Please don't give up. Its worth it.


NOTHING is worth ending your life over.

i tired sure glad i did not make it , i have been where you are i screwed up killing myself thank god i wanted to die so bad until i survived
died but came back , i was so happy it was mistake i realized this , i did not really want to die just thought i did, yesterday my cuz 17 year old grandson took his life
17 so please live for him hugs min

Dear Ghost dancer , DITTO ,I know how you feel and its hard to talk to people who do not experience this as we do. They think you can shake it off....... doesnt work that way...

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I am so sorry you feel so much pain, and I am praying for you to have peace~

Thank you for sharing. The pain or more accurately the hurting and suffering does feel overwhelming. I think everyday if I were in this life for just me then it wouldn't be worth it. Sometimes our life isn't our own. We endure because of loved ones or any that might need our help. We endure to ease their suffering. It is like wanting to take a bullet for your child, because you want them safe and out of love. If you weren't around then they would have to take it and be alone without that love. I pray this helps, as I know many sadly do know how you feel. You are in my prayers and please do endure and fight on. Thank you and God Bless.

I have been in that deep dark hole. And I have also felt the despair as I felt the emptiness and physical pain hold me down til I felt I could not find a way out. I found myself doubting God and why He would sit by and watch this all unfold?

I have come to realize there is a purpose....everything is a part of a greater plan. I would find strength and an outstretched hand (or two) to yank me out before I disappeared. You have others on here, your son, those furry critters (who , you and I both know, can touch our hearts and make us smile in the worst possible moment)

I m trying to focus on small steps..... Maybe it would help if you can focus on good things that will again lie ahead....... a good soak in your hot springs....the wind in your face as you ride your trike on a warm, sunny day, the critters playing peek a boo as they hide under the cushions again, you son's smile.....

I hate to think of this all being taken from you ...
Hugs, thoughts and prayers are with you.

PS Just think how many more people would be tortured with my endless chatter if you weren't around??? lol

Even though I don't know you, your post breaks my heart. I can only imagine what you must be going through to feel the way you do. Please don't give up. God has a purpose for you in this life, and it is an important one. If you let Him, He will show you what it is. Hey, it's a new year. Maybe try something new. I have found helping the less fortunate to be very uplifting. Perhaps you can try volunteering a couple hours a month at a thrift shop or a shelter near you. Maybe your purpose in this world is to help others. Maybe showing others you hit rock bottom and still made it all work will help others who will soon endure similar situations. Who knows? What have you got to lose?

Id suggest taking antipsychotic mood stabilizer and anti depressant with psychiatrist

Sometimes it's just great to have meds to stop the pain

Also beware Incase your medication is getting you down that can be a side effect!!!

Get a personal trainer exercise hard for an hour a day you'll feel loads better after a week

Go try therapy, or stop therapy

Go try a twelve step fellowship and taking part

Spend all your time doing and listening to nice things so even if you feel knackered and bad at least your thoughts aren't beating you up

Try eckhart tolle on YouTube videos and dbt

Try sleeping away your misery, I've spent nearly twenty four hours a day sleeping for months on occasion

Create a safe bubble to exist within and do nice things

Sure hope you be feeling better soon hun

Can we get an update? Worried about you

I’m still here though just why it remains to be seen. I’m due to see both of my doctors very soon. I do have a choice of ways to leave none of which I’ve attempted before so as they say practice makes perfect.