Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Worst part of day is waking up realizing im still alive. The nightmare has not ended. I still have nothing left. I go to bed sobbing. Wake up sobbing. I was so stupid to think i could have left. I should have known there was no way out. That he planned to destroy me all along. I should have never left. I should have kept me mouth shut and obeyed him. Now i have nothing. It is so much worse now the pain i suffer. At least it will end permanently in 12 days.
Why do you say there was no way out? Didn't you get out? Isn't that
what you are lamenting? What good would it have done to stay?
Sounds like it was pretty miserable to get you to leave in the first
place. Obeying another is no way to live at all. Ride this out, it will
get better. See a therapist, reach out for help. Ending it all isn't the way.
I hated ahole so much. I was happy to get rid of him. I was stupid to think he would just disappear and go on with his life and leave me alone. I wish i would have let him die when he took 60 pills. That is what i feel bad about. Things could have been different if i wasnt stupid and let him die. But stupid me thought my daughter would have blamed herself for he dad dying cause she was fighting with him and that is why he took pills in front of her. It would have been so much better for everyone if he would have died then.
The only one who died was me. That is what he wanted. For me to suffer cause i left. He knew there was only one thing that mattered to me in this world. I let him have everything to keep only thing that i lived for in this world. But he had to take them away from me too cause nothing would hurt me more. I was stupid not to realize he planned this all along. I should have stayed. It isnt hard to cook. Clean. Obey and keep my mouth shut.
I hope you will accept my offer of friendship.