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While my boyfriend brought in the New Years at a party surrounded by friends, I brought in the New Year by clocking out at work, going outside and spending 40 mins waiting for my mom. My boyfriend (or anyone for that matter) didn't call or text me to say Happy New Year. At that moment I felt utterly alone.
It only gets worse for me. My mom doesn't end up coming to get me until 1:30. I get off at 12. I go home to an empty house. Then I try to fall asleep. I wake up because I don't feel good and check Facebook, like I normally do. I see a post about his New Years (he's home now) and he calls the host the most beautiful woman he knows.
Is this supposed to make me happy? It honestly hurt me more deeply than I'd like to admit. That ONE line, makes me feel like I'm not worth it, like I don't mean anything to him. And it hurts. I'm insecure. I really am, but I've learned what I can handle and what I can't. Listening to my boyfriend call another girl beautiful is NOT one of those things.
I don't know how I should take this.
Help.
It only gets worse for me. My mom doesn't end up coming to get me until 1:30. I get off at 12. I go home to an empty house. Then I try to fall asleep. I wake up because I don't feel good and check Facebook, like I normally do. I see a post about his New Years (he's home now) and he calls the host the most beautiful woman he knows.
Is this supposed to make me happy? It honestly hurt me more deeply than I'd like to admit. That ONE line, makes me feel like I'm not worth it, like I don't mean anything to him. And it hurts. I'm insecure. I really am, but I've learned what I can handle and what I can't. Listening to my boyfriend call another girl beautiful is NOT one of those things.
I don't know how I should take this.
Help.
I don't know about your boyfriend. You do have to have a conversation with him though. Why didn't he pick you up? What didn't he take the time to email or test you. He could have sent you a virtual kiss. And, the hardest part, what the hell did he mean by what he wrote on face book. Maybe he just meant she was a great hostess. Who know until you ask him.
I am sorry your Mom was late. What was her excuse? It is not right leaving someone sitting outside looking for a ride that late at night. Very dangerous as a matter of fact.
I hope your New Year is better. In order to have that you need to have more self respect and increase your self esteem. Are you seeing a therapist. Are you on medication. If not, I would check into these things. But again, that is your choice. I do believe your happiness will increase if you do.