Let's see what do i have to be depressed about- i can sum in up in 2 years- 2006-2007 just about killed me- it was a real emotional rollercoaster-it all started August 18th 2006- thats the day i will never forget and wish had not happened- thats the day my mom lost her battle with colon cancer and passed away...not a day goes by that i don't think of her and wish she was still here with me- i lost a mom and a best friend ... it was truly one of the worst days of my life... at this same time my boyfriend at the time - had a heart attack and was in critical condition- thankfully he pulled through and was doing great- but then we stopped talking and to this day i don't know if he is dead or alive- i really couldn't deal with it at the time and i do want to know- but have no way of contacting him or his family.... my best guy friend- confesses that he loves me and always has - but we can't be together because he has a girlfriend and he can't break her heart- so i said i understood although i still don't... 2007- while visiting a friend i got addicted to 2 drugs- 1 illegal and 1 prescription and i am proud to say i haven't touched any kind of drug since August 07- Go Me!/ i was threatened by a friend of a friend - he said he was gonna set me on fire and throw me through the window of the house and he wasn't joking... i was beaten and almost raped by a man who was the cousin of my best guy friend- he got mad cause i didn't love him and so i had to have my sis rescue me from that situation.... i met a man who i thought was great - he turned out to be a married lying jerk and we had an on again/ off again relationship for 7 months- he has gone back to his wife and now i sit alone and depressed and there is a 50/50 percent chance that i'm pregnant - if so - its his baby and i don't know what i'm gonna do.... i have bill collectors calling me looking for him- insisting he gave them my cell number as his own and i'm having to live with my sis and i'm 24 , i'm broke, looking for a new job, have no car, and i'm a big loser...... so that about sums up why i am depressed... any questions or advice is welcomed .....
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