Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
Hi all; my name is LoralP and i have battled depression for as long as i can remember. i wont go into my life story ( at least not yet!) but the last year and a half have been hell. actually the last 10 years have been hell. in Oct of '02 my husband left me, 6 days later my Father whom i adored, dies suddenly of cerebral hemerrage, in Dec i was in a hit and run from a drunk driver that changed and ( i feel) ruined my life forever and left me in chronic pain for life. i try and think positive, it could have been so much worse. My Mother fell apart, they were married 55 years. i have a brother and sister but they were no help. it fell to me to care for her the last 10 years. we were best friends and cared for each other. a year and a half agomy Mother had a stroke and was also diagnosed with breast cancer ( all the same day) we batled it together. through the year she steadily declined with multiple mini strokes and depression. she had another major stroke and lived in a nursing home for the last 3 months of her life. again, my brother and sister were nowhere to be seen. so, thats my life for the last 10 years. I am the executor of the estate which has been a nightmare with my siblings, and i feel so overwhelmed and lost. i cannot seem to do the simplest things, clean any part of my house, eat, shower, anything. i feel so angry and alone. my own health has gotten worse and i feel the drs are ignoring me. im not looking for pills or anything, they just dont seem tocare. a month ago i developed a upper GI bleed and i am still waiting to see someone about it even though the ER Dr said i needed to be seen ASAP. i have an awesome boyfriend but even he is getting tired of all my aches, pains, illnesses, etc. and i dont blame him, i'm tired of it all myself. i would never kill myself, i have 2 awesome, beautiful, talented, amazing daughters ages 22 and 24. they are the light of my life, but i feel i let them down as well. so, that is me. i am going to counciling soon but i tried it before and it did no good. but i am going to try again. story of my life, just keep ( swimming!) trying. so thank you for listening, replying if you do, and just......bless you all who are going through so much as well.
counseling is just time for you to talk, maybe with the right counselor it's worth reconsidering..i know it helps me deal with my troubles.
wishing you peace and strength.
As your children get older, you may be able to lean on them a bit. I don't like leaning on children too much, just feels wrong. But a slight adjustment in that area of your life might help your depression.
Oh and welcome to DS! This is a really good place where people get it when you talk about anxiety and depression. As you learn more about the people here odds are you will find several people who are fighting similar issues to you. Then you can vent to them, share with them, and find some solutions that work for you!
Sometimes you have to get firm with doctors. You can remind them that the ER doctor said you needed to be seen by them ASAP. (You can get a bit snarky with them and ask them if they need to have 'ASAP' translated into words they can understand!)
Yes siblings can be hard to deal with when it comes to settling an estate. But as executor of the estate you may have the authority to decide what is what and your word is final. It may damage your relationship with them, but then it sounds like it is already pretty damaged.
Gentle hugs