What is causing you the most pain right now? Is it that your family and boyfriend don't know about your sexual orientation? What if they knew and would be very supportive? Maybe if they knew how much you were hurting, they would want to help you. Please, reach out to the closest person to you, your best friend, your bf, whoever you feel you can trust the most. Tell them how you are feeling. They will want to help you through this. Keeping the secrets is probably causing a lot of your anxiety. Do you have a therapist or counselor you can talk to? Reach out to someone, I think you will find that people are more accepting than you think.

honesty is best policy....time to get honest....or go to ER and get honest about harming self...

If your feeling suicidal and have hurt yourself,Id go to the ER. or call a crisis number and see if someone can talk with you.Do you have a therapist you could talk with?

if you are seriously hurt, you need to tell someone, go to a hospital, etc. if you cut yourself or something and think it's not that bad, then maybe clean and bandage it...do you have any friends you can talk to, or even talk to over the internet if you don't think you can tell them face-to-face...honestly, unless your parents etc. are abusive, i think it would be good to tell them what's going on in your life...and maybe they can help....stay calm, don't panic, just think things thru and you should be fine.

Have you hurt yourself bad? If so sweetie PLEASE get to the hospital. If not, clean it up well and keep it clean...no need adding an infection to your troubles, eh?

Sounds like you have a ton going on...coming here is an awesome start. I haven't been around a lot lately but there are stellar people here if you take some time. Talk. Share. It's why we're all here.

Also sounds like you might get some real value out of a therapist. You're keeping a huge secret, keeping a part of who you are hidden from everybody. That would give just about anybody anxiety! A therapist will also have good suggestions to deal with and get rid of those suicidal thoughts. Please try not to dwell on those...they are your enemies!

Wishing you the very best. ☼

How are you now? Feeling better? Hang in there, everything will be right.

feeling better.. thanks everyone.. I have cut myself etc., and have helped myself.. I want to come out but its just so hard.. no therapist to go to... I have to decide when I will tell but in the mean time, I need to pull myself together.. thank you all

Young people aren't being raised with a sense of privacy nowadays, and there's such all fired up pressure to tell everyone everything. What is it about being bisexual that anybody needs to know? Is your sex life not your own concern any more? My daughter came out to me as pansexual a while ago and i was like sure, whatever.... who cares? I love you, don't care who you shag. Why would I care, why would I need to know? -- --- If my daughter were bringing home a girl I guess I'd need to know. But again, probably not. She might feel the need to tell me, but I don't feel a need to know.

-- -- -- I don't know. the world has changed. People want to tell you everything. OP you just have to remember that it's not dishonest to be silent. Silence is not a statement. To lie you have to make a deliberately false statement about reality. Okay? Words, coming out of your mouth. That are deliberately false. Anywhere else you want to sit on the spectrum is your own private right to sit. Tell people if you wish to, but don't tell people if you don't wish to. Your privacy is a personal right that has probably not been upheld to you, but which you can uphold yourself.

They have free options for therapy. Google Free therapist in your area. I went to one that had students but thereally is a licensed therapist there to over see the sessions.

@lydia085: Thanks for replying. When you didn't respond to others' comments, I was worried; hoping that you are fine. Thanks for pulling yourself together. I know that it's easy for me to say "please don't hurt yourself again" but trust me, I have been through that journey. If we have the courage to end our lives, why can't we build the courage to stand strong? We are still alive today, showing there's purpose for our living. Move forward a better tomorrow. The load that you are carrying is too heavy and doesn't serve you at all. Put it down, and let's walk forward together.