Hi Jess,
I can relate to some of what you wrote. I'm sorry you're struggling so much. Have you ever been able to go to counseling or try antidepressants?

Hi Jess,
You are not alone with those feelings. Depression and anxiety can easily keep us from doing even the simplest tasks.
I think it may help you to talk with a counselor. I know you don’t work, but there are some charitable organizations and churches that offer free counseling, or at least on a sliding scale.
Take one day at a time and don’t give up hope. Life can and will be better for you if you keep trying.

I've tried antidepressants when I was younger about 17 years-old but it stole my personality and didn't help much with my depression which scared me alot and I have never seen a counselor or anything because i always thought it cost I have never found a free one and low cost is not an option right now. As for churches Im a lesbian who lives in Oklahoma haven't found a lot that are accepting here.

Your life matters. Don't think it doesn't first and foremost. We are all important. Yes counselors can cost lots of money but there are ways to get the help you seek such as this group. Reach out to people here and find someone you can trust. We exist i promise:) find an outlet and a way to discoswhat you fell and find a positive way to process it. But above all, don't doubt your self worth. No oh here will everthink that you aren't worth it

Hi Jess, I'm so sorry you're experiencing this. I understand how you feel.

Please know that you are not alone in this struggle, and your life is so incredibly valuable. I believe that every person, including you, Jess, is created for a purpose.

Is there someone you can talk to about this? Maybe calling a family member? I know there are resources at my church for free counseling. Would you consider looking into something like this?

Hang in there, friend. Praying for you!

Hi Jess. Perhaps you might take a look at GayChurch.org. Not that I know what I am talking about, but I went to the site and it says that there at least 7 affirming Christian churches in Oklahoma City. Thinking of you and praying for you.

Dear girl, I'm so sorry you're feeling so discouraged. Can we start with the basics? You are NOT useless, nor a waste of time or space! You are made in the image of God, ON PURPOSE, BY God. You are here because He wanted you to be here and because He loves you and wants you to KNOW that Love.

When did you start feeling this way about yourself?
When was the FIRST time you felt this way about yourself?
What is the earliest time in your life where you felt like you really didn't matter to someone?

These questions might help you get to the root of today's feelings.
You don't need to HAVE more worth, you need to KNOW how really valuable and important you are right now!
How can I help you?
I'm praying for you. <3