Hi everyone, 

I'm new here and not sure how or where to begin. I'm not sure if I'm stressed out or depressed. I'm struggling in my life and feel like I want to scream. My husband is not living at home for the next 2 years due to his job we see him on most weekends but I hate him for this. I'm overwhelmed with work and kids. When My husband and I got married I was going to be a homemaker, that was my dream but, because of some really stupid decisions, on his part, I had to go back to work full time and become the breadwinner of the family.  My husband got a job during the summer which has taken him away but does not pay nearly enough for us to survive without my income.  

There is no one I can talk to because everyone on my side of the family is to concerned about their lives to remotely listen or care about me (which I get and that’s how it should be but sometimes it hurts). I can't talk to anyone on my husbands side because he's oh so wonderful and because when compared to my husbands family we are the cousin eddies from national lampoon and they don't want to know how hard we struggle (his entire family and I mean everyone aunts, uncles, cousins, siblings, parents are all well off living in their $500,000+ homes, wearing their perfect clothes, and going on their extravagant vacations). Every time somethings brought up they laugh it off like I'm exaggerating and I'm tired of it. 

I can't handle the pressure, am burnt out, my kids are driving me nuts and my house is a complete and utter disaster.  I know I should be grateful for all I have, especially with everything happening in this world, and I would love to be but I just want to pull my hair out and scream. I want to quit my job and run away. I have no way to relax, am constantly on edge, and have no patients. I’m a complete and utter mess.

Anyway thanks for listening