I can certainly relate with you. I am also new here, and for the longest time I struggled with depression, but I found that I could distract myself by throwing myself into a lot of homework and staying busy. Unfortunately, that does not sustain itself, and I, too, always feel like I start back at square one.
Right now, I feel that life is futile and that I have no real strong community to turn to. And it sucks. It honestly sucks.

I am so sorry that you feel this way, but you are not alone.

Yeah . Still going through depression and anxiety. There are some days when I'm ok and then some days when I don't want to do anything and have urges to kill myself. Its hard to going to people for help bc of fear of judgement. Here on this site at least its a relief to know you're not alone.

I'm sorry to hear about your brothers passing and I can definitely relate. I've struggled with depression for about 12 years and I've never been medicated or treated for it.

I'm at the lowest point of my life and I've been going through nonstop nonsense for the past 5 years. All I have is my dog Tank and while he is my whole world, it would be nice to just have one person in my life.

I can relate to you. I was in extreme depression and anxiety after my little sister's death. I tried to end my life several times. It was because of my carelessness my little sister died. This was haunting me like hell. I was on medication for many years but there was no change in my condition. It became worse after each year. But a year back, my mom took me for an acupuncture treatment from a clinic in Toronto ( https://www.physiomed.ca/treatments/acupunture/ ). There is a great change in my condition. At the least, I stopped hurting myself. My parents are really happy for me.
You are not alone. We all are here to help one another. You could share your feelings with us. No one is going to judge you here.

Thank you for sharing your story. It must be difficult feeling this way. I dont know the circumstances of what happened, but no matter what we do in life, we cannot control or predict the outcome.

I relate to your story too because I had another brother that died at an early age. He was 2 years old, and my older siblings were babysitting when it happened. They lived their lives blaming themselves. And I wish I could have taken that pain away from them.... because no matter what they did that day, it may not have changed the outcome. Sometimes fate has a way of taking over.

I hope you are doing better now and can take peace with your sister being in a better and happy place. I feel like my brothers are together and are at peace, and I find that comforting.

Hello, I see your strength and your fight through the anxiety and depression. I know it gets tough, but you are getting through this. Please don’t harm yourself and know that your life is worth the fight. I extend my condolences for the loss for your beloved brother. Also, you have something to strive for in the future, but it’s difficult to see now you need time to get better before you can see this. I would like for you to call either of these numbers if you need them in the future the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255). It’s a 24- hour confidential hotline. They can talk to you when you feel this way and help with preventive measures. Also, you can call; The Samaritans it’s a 24-hour confidential hotline at (212) 673-3000. We are here for you.