Hey! :D I bet you're totally Loveable. If Donald Trump was elected president with however many thousands of people disliking him, I bet there are millions of people that would like you for who you are. :) Dang, that sounded better in my head...

Lol

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I'm a young pansexual, wondering why I can't be loved and accepted

Hello,
It's late so I maybe shouldn't respond. With that in mind, I have to say I find your post slightly confusing.

I personally think it is unrealistic to expect all of your friends to care as deeply for you as your family and close friends.

In fact I would go so far as to suguest that having two close friends, a family that cares and a bunch of casual friends puts you way ahead of the curve.

I can relate to, what sounds like, unrealistic expectations, to me anyway. I tend to expect everyone to stop and turn when I speak. I think that is my way of avoiding cultivating the close friends I have.

I hope I am not judging your situation by my reality, it's just that your post sounds a lot like what I think, often.

I'm inclined to think that feeling misunderstood, unwanted and without value is pretty stock standard depression. It's happening inside you, not outside you. And so you need to address it between you and yourself. Does that make sense? You could be loved by all and still feel isolated and alone, with depression. That's why people kill themselves and send their families into a tailspin of grief; they didn't think they were loved when they were loved beyond all measure.

So just remember that in your down days. That people do love you and some people would be destroyed if you were not there.