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Never enough

Jaxzdolli
Jaxzdolli

I seem to have a gift for never keeping people happy. According to everyone I'm a pro at angering, and causing annoyance for any living human.


I have a natural unpleasantness about me, pure talent, at causing so much negativity because I don't stand up for myself or I DO stand up for myself. 



I've grow a 6th since, it being the ability to torcher others with my existence just ask the people who know me right?


The people whom raised me they would know wouldn't they? You'd think, ask all the people who have made me change or drop others and things just to please them. I am nothing but scum, as they've said.


Ask the brother which had to be a man of the house he'll tell you, I'm  nothing shy of a loser, a lazy waste of General space. 


Or maybe the father who ran around with my babysitters and abused the angry brother, left 10 years but somehow smooth talked a return with a ring for the mother.


Ah the mother....my mother a woman stronger than any I've met, but so torn and battered not just bye that man, work has her losing what's left of her sanity.... the mother whom has not a shred of respect. I look to much like the man who's worn her... so I'm down low to the ground with nothing left for her but my own child. 


My beautiful miracle that everyone wants, yet NO one wants that responsibility AGAIN. The angel that everyone fights for, or over. Give up custody and go off to do as you please my mother so rudely requests. 


Ah what a life....one where awakening is so much more painful than broken bones, gashes, dease. I'm in a broken numb state of mind. My body is but a corps freshly bathed daily to fool the world and ride the stinch of sorrow and loneliness.


J.D

Muffet
Muffet
That's a lot of raw emotions pouring out! And it sounds like a lot of stories to tell. One thing I do know: you can't make everyone happy. Everyone's perspective is his or her own reality, so when you act one way with one person and the same way with another, they'll each tell a different story of the way you acted. What does it all boil down to? Listen to your conscience, do what is right, and enjoy the peace you will have. Will you make everyone happy? Of course not. But you will have inner peace knowing that you did the right thing, to the best of your ability. Take heart and confidence in that! And maybe your example will help someone else do the same.
thunderman
thunderman
I can relate to everything you say..I am that way, in my own ho0me..family, can't win..even my own wife, can't please her, everything I do is wrong..I am a criminal, in my own home, . so what do we do? leave? that's my situation, getting out of the house as much as I can, when I'm there all we do is fight..the last 15 years has been that way. People ask me why don't you just leave?? not that simple, at least to me, with having depression, and ADD, makes it a hard thing to do..start thinking too much, and then, everything, gets blow out of proportion...hopefully, one day, I'll reach that point, everybody says I will, when you've had enough, you will leave..yeah, if it doesn't kill me first..good luck my friend.