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Just had to throw in a mini-rant. I nearly got hospitalized (involuntarily) a few days ago for being suicidal. Today a "friend" called, ostensibly to see how I was (she didn't know why I was out) but actually to tell me some bad rumors from work, in a voice of fury. If I tried to steer the conversation back to a middle line, she only got angrier, and she's like this all the time. One of the rumors concerned layoffs (in this area that means firings), and if I were to get laid off I would have to be hospitalized as there are NO jobs here and I have no money, and no way to live and my first thought would be suicide.
This "friend" is the same one who hooked me up with someone she knows who is verbally abusive -- and then once that person latched on to me, my "friend" backed out of the picture. She did this knowing I would feel sorry for the abusive person, who is elderly and lonely, and she did it deliberately.
Yes, I need to cut connections with this "friend." But in the meantime I'm so ticked off I just had to rant somewhere. Four days ago they wanted to lock me up so I wouldn't hurt myself and now she's telling me exactly what will upset me the most. If I didn't know better, I'd think she was doing it deliberately. Argh!!!
Well, I guess it's better to get angry than to get suicidal. Thanks for listening.
This "friend" is the same one who hooked me up with someone she knows who is verbally abusive -- and then once that person latched on to me, my "friend" backed out of the picture. She did this knowing I would feel sorry for the abusive person, who is elderly and lonely, and she did it deliberately.
Yes, I need to cut connections with this "friend." But in the meantime I'm so ticked off I just had to rant somewhere. Four days ago they wanted to lock me up so I wouldn't hurt myself and now she's telling me exactly what will upset me the most. If I didn't know better, I'd think she was doing it deliberately. Argh!!!
Well, I guess it's better to get angry than to get suicidal. Thanks for listening.
RICHARD
A trigger is a reactions that awakes something perhaps in your past, or your issues.
But people will do or say things that are plain mean and very upsetting, they are not "triggering" you they are plain mean.
It doesn't seem to me you're trying to change your friend, you choosing to come here and vent about is very healthy.
When someone kicks you, you do choose it to cause it pain, it hurts for real.
I'm glad you vented.. be careful or I might send you a message that 'almost' make you laugh!!
much love
Logi
harder to do with family, but non-relatives?? No reason to keep the shitty ones in your life.
Feel better, keep that chin UP, that was a great vent! *hugs*