Saturday was my grandma's funeral... It was soo hard... I help my temper fairly well, considering I've been nothing but angry since she died last week.... I've wanted to go off on EVERYONE... My mom and I have fought off and on It's been a TERRIBLE week.. Everything that could go wrong has been going wrong... And saturday night my cousin and her daughter were starting to go off on my mom.. And although i can't stand my mom and we fight a lot I was NOT going to let them go off on her over something MANY people agreed with... So i defneded her, while being as nice and honest as possible... Well.. They got mad.. The one I had originally been talking to messaged me.. she went OFF on me. But we worked it out.. But before we worked it out her mom started messaging me, posting on my facebook ect.. Calling me a "titty baby", threatening me, telling me thaat im just "guilty because i didn't spend time with my grandma, especially in her last moments" ... I spent HOURS with her the day before she died.. I was there every other day during her last week.. I sat with her when my aunt and uncle needed a break, I came to see her as much as possible... SHE RARELY came over.. Couldn't even call her occasionally..... But.. I still kept my cool with her. pretty much all i even said to her the whole time was to leave me alone... and she wouldn't stop... I fell apart...  Now she's determined to try causing more problems... And tries using my grandmas memories to hurt me and my mom... It's driving me nuts.. And we had 2 animals die... And me and my boyfriend have been having some troubles.. Thanks to me..... He's been great.. Me not so much... I honestly just want to disappear... Every time I talk everything goes wrong... I do nothing but ruin things... All I do is ruin everything... I honestly don't know what to do anymore.... I just feel like I am going to fall apart...