It's unfortunate that you feel that cutting yourself is going to relieve your pain, is the pain that deep? I think ringing a crisis hotline might be of benefit to you, merely talking your way through how you feel with another may be enough to ease your pain. Three months without cutting is a remarkable achievement, and one you should not only be proud of, but continue to protect at all costs. It's a pity you went off-line just as I was about to respond to this post because I would have been more than happy to have engaged you in chat, maybe some other time with that, maybe not. I wish you good health nonetheless.

Honey, can you please tell me whats wrong? I am here, can e-mail me ay time. Needing advisement. You have alot of living to do! These times may seem rough but there is a rainbow on the other side. With a po of gold I might add. Hold on and wait for the miracle to happen. Give it over to God and he will help you through. Situations at home bad? God is still there to elp,you have to ask for his help.

Jenlost,
I am here if you just need to talk to someone! I can listen! I can give you the advice I know how, but I'm not so sure that I can give you much advice, because I'm only 21, but I will try! Just don't give cutting the upper hand. You need to rise above it. I know it's easier said than done!

Please continue writing and expressing yourself. We are here for you. Depression sucks, but it can be worked thru. Keep your Faith. You are very strong for having held off for 3 months. Now focus on day by day.

I know whatyou mean. Sometimes the depression is like a transparent layer of illusion th at covers reality and we get lost in the illusiont hinking that it is reality, like the illusiont hat things are very bad and we are powerless against it. This is simply not true, because when you put things in perspective thigns are actually goign very well and we are fortunate to be where we are. So what can you do that is constructive for yourself to help things be different so you are not a powerless victim? Maybe if you can't fight the depressed/cutting thoughts just observe them and scknowledge them but then admit that they are not rational thoughts. Talk to a therapist. that will help! You might need to work on loving yourself more and not letting other people make you feel so bad. When you feel good about who you are then it is harder for other people to make you feel bad. sorry about the typos.

but also knowing who you are and loving yourself means respecting yourself enough to get out of a situationt hat is harming you...