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RockNMetalChic
RockNMetalChic

I feel like my heart has been ripped out of my chest ,the man I love has completely ended everything with me and how do u go from telling each other u love each other and would do anything for one another ,to treating me like trash and playing with my emotions,all I can seem to do is cry and I feel like I want him to be happier, but I still want him to be that way with me :(   nobody has ever not hurt me like this in my life and I can't seem to let this go, I feel like I can't breathe like someone has stuck a pin in my lungs and deflated them,I know it is but feels like my heart isn't beating anymore ,why is this happening to me again, all I did was love him and support him through his depression ,who else is going to send him cute little song lyrics when he is sad ,or hold him and run their fingers through his hair,I'm having a really tough time letting go especially when he still wants to talk to me as a friend, I can't look into those blue eyes and feel nothing ,I can't not want to be there for him,I can't take back the things he said to me,the way they made me feel,I can't believe he just gave in and gave up so easily ,am I not worth loving ,what did I do to deserve all this pain! I have to be at work in a few hrs and don't know how I'm going to make it without bursting into tears every few seconds ,this pain is too much for me 

tonisora
tonisora
It fucking sucks, Heartbreak sucks. If you can manage to hold yourself and your life together and still talk to him as friends, okay. But it sounds like you need to tell him you need some space. If he can't respect that, he was never the one for you. I find that taking at least 6 months if not a couple years of space is how long it takes me to come to terms with the emotions I have about a particular person or relationship. message me if you want to talk more.
maluhia76321
maluhia76321
ending are so painful. you should do what ever you need to do and if that means not being his friend , so be it. it beats being enemies and you deserve the space you need to heal , after all , all you did was love him.
Yard_Eggs
Yard_Eggs
I am confused... Are you referring to your husband?
RockNMetalChic
RockNMetalChic
Thank u all for the support ,managed to drag myself out of bed after 4 hrs of sleep and heading into work ,husband ,can't really call him that anymore .....
Flossicus
Flossicus
I truly am so sorry that you are going through this, I know it is unbearable. There is no right advice I can give you but I do send a HUGE hug. I personally couldn't be friends with my ex, I felt deep down he didn't deserve that after taking so much from me. Take it hour by hour xx
Esther2259
Esther2259
My heart goes out to you! It is so difficult to work through your emotions…and then have to go to work and put all that aside. I’m glad you made it through your day. I know what it feels like not to have someone want you, the way you want them. It truly hurts.

It’s odd, but I found comfort in knowing that I cannot control another person's feelings, only my own. For me, I had to find my own happiness and contentment in searching my soul. It increased my faith and that has helped me through that type of experience, and many others. I hope this helps bring you some comfort knowing that you are not alone.
lovehurts1978
lovehurts1978
Brandi i am truly sorry for your pain and heartache. I wish that there was something i could say to comfort you. Just know you are in my prayers and i am here if you need me. Stay strong...
RockNMetalChic
RockNMetalChic
Thanks everyone ,I'd like to say I'm feeling better but I'm not ,filled a 5 subject notebook with words of love ,poems, songs,it was pointless and I still feel worthless ,can't stop crying still,I'm staying up late ,getting 4 hrs or less of sleep a night and then working as many hrs as I can to try to not think about it .....
inarut
inarut
Feel for you as I am going through the same torture. My boyfriend was soooo loving and sweet at first , took total advantage of me , always needing money after losing jobs. Like a fool I helped him for 3 years hoping he would value my help and total love. But he started devaluing me and raging at me if I wondered why. Narcissist behavior is devastating to the victim. Makes you feel like you are the ugliest, least desirable person on Earth! He has left me and I hardly hear from him. No answer for days after I text or call.
It's so hard not to contact him because my heart is aching and I feel like I have been punched in the chest. I get a crumb of love now and then-just enough to keep me hanging on. I don't know how to stop loving him.
RockNMetalChic
RockNMetalChic
That Is so sad and I totally get it inarut, this has cut me so deeply It hurts to breathe , sometimes I feel like maybe I don't exist because there is no way 1 can go through so much emotional pain ,today I can't eat ,I can't sleep and tears won't stop
inarut
inarut
I am crying with you Rocknchic! BTW was your guy a musician? Mine was.
RockNMetalChic
RockNMetalChic
Thank u and no mine was unemployed factory worker,with amazing blue eyes and a smile that would get me so flustered I couldn't remember my own name, I like rock and metal music
inarut
inarut
I know! The feeling you get is like a powerful drug. It's like having actual withdrawls when it's gone.. I've read that it really is similar in that the endorphins released when you are in love plummet to the ground when it's gone. I have actually collapsed to the floor from the loss. But I am trying to make it better by having buttered popcorn and watching the Voice. lol Little things every day just to comfort yourself helps. I don't think the kind of love I had for that man will ever come again. Yours was that way too. I am so sorry for both of us. But I know that we well heal with time and that we are strong girls.