If you don't do anything about it, you will go crazy. So you either "force" yourself to DO something, or go crazy. You have a choice. Kick yourself in the ass, truly. Sometimes, it's in the doing that we find motivation and peace. Sometimes, it's in the accomplishment when when we have gotten it all done.

Love yourself enough to kick your own ass into getting things done. That's what I do. I owe that to myself.

And again, when I exercise (heart rate above 60 bpm for at least 30 minutes), afterward, I want to take on the world. I even want to make it better for someone else! It's like my brain goes RAAAAAAWWWWRRRRRRR!!!!!!. Then, things happen. I don't question it. I just love when it happens, because all THOSE feelings vanish into thin air. I swear to the holy heavens of the United States of England.

Maybe that's exercise and AC/DC.....but still.

Id say that the first order of business is to get the glasses fixed. I know that in my own life, I have to have glasses to see.

Can you go to Wal Mart to get more meds and use the generics or get Prescripton Assitance or get samples of meds from the doctor?

I know about a loss of control...everyday is like that for me.....

The only reason that I keep going is survival.

I take a ton of meds and I used to work in the medical field so I know that lots come in generic and there are also lots of programs that will assist or even give free meds to people who cant afford it, but you have to actually get off your butt and look into it. I'm sorry to sound harsh, but some things you do need to do for yourself, they aren't going to be done for you. If you don't have money, you can qualify for medi cal or other government assistance. Have you even tried? if you spent as much energy trying to help yourself as you do complaining bout it, you would be surprised how much you can get done. Lots of things can be done on line too so you don't have to worry about money for gas or bus, ect.. Also if you have anyone who could possibly give you a ride, that would help too. I'm sorry to say, but you cant get help if you wont first help yourself. A friend told me yesterday that you just have to decide when you have had enough, when it's time to think of yourself and move on so that you can finally find happiness. If you had money and blew it...well why? I don't want to know. i'm just saying fix that part of your life so that you can have money again. Its a matter of getting your priorities in order and only you can do that. But it all starts with you. I agree, get your glasses fixed. I know I couldn't live without mine. Good luck to you.

I feel you. I think about how overwhelmed I am all the time. It's okay to feel these intense feelings, we need time let our feelings flow, to be mad, sad, scared. I am beginning to understand that I need to portion off time in the day where I let myself be expressive. Coming on here has been part of that.

My advice: Pick one thing on your list to focus on, that will be your tomorrow. Accept that you will let the others go and focus on one thing. Kiss the worries of other things goodbye - imagine how you achieve the success you are focusing on. Once that is done, celebrate, and start working on the 2nd.

There are some circumstances here you can't change. That's okay. You have the power to take care of yourself and do what you need to get done to feel stable.

I really like a lot of what has been said.

I normally wait for the storm to die down and then I work on what needs to be worked on.

For example, I have a horrid bedroom with clothes everywhere and not enough space. Well, the holidays are coming up so now I have time to go to Wal Mart and get drawers and shoe hangers and neaten the room.

I know that this sounds like a shallow example, but you can apply this to nearly anything--to wait until you have the quiet time to brainstorm and see what can be done.