Been awhile sense I posted just did get moved into my new home.The move was not a move of convinence.It was a had to move cause of expenses.I wont go into a lot on the money issue just that there was never enough to take care of the bills.So we moved to a new area and a cheaper place to rent.I thought the move would help with expense,stress,depression and life in general.Maybe I had my hopes set to high or maybe I just was not be realistic.What ever the case I am pretty down in the dumps and feel like I have a black cloud hanging over my head.I have not lived in my new place even a month and have had complaints from the neighbor on the dogs barking complaints from land lord and the traylor I live in needs some major work.Due to the neighbors complaing about the dogs and the land lord allready being testy I am afraid to ask for the repairs to be done.And to top it off I have been sick sense moving into my new home.I have severe ear impairment due to sinus/ear infection.I am on my second round of meds and still no relief,I can not hear out of my right ear and barely out of the left.My right ear pounds all the time.I have a great niece who just turned seven who is ill and will not be seen by a specialist until the end of july.I am so worried about her.And the normal every day stuff of trying to get well and deal with living in this place and keeping myself from not going over the edge with depression.Most the time I can not sleep or I am awake until I can not hold my eyes open anymore.Not sure what to do with all that is in my head.Also been thinking about my nephew who took his own life and can not believe its been thirteen years.He was so young.And right now I feel so old and wore out.Jerrie