I just joined this site. I Googled "depression is killing me" and this site came up. I've struggled with depression for most of my life. I've been on medication for about twenty years and have tried most antidepressants and many combinations of them. I've been in and out of therapy for 25 or 30 years. I've tried so many things, I've "asked for help" countless times and I'm sick to death of all of it.. I'm not that young anymore. I'm as sick as I was 30 years ago. My life has no purpose. I've prayed many times to be given the ability to kill myself with no result. I've read some of the entry s on here and I can relate, but that doesn't help me. The "love" and "support" seem kind of corny. You don't know me. You will never know me.
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