They must have really affected you.
Glad you came here. Lots of love from people like you.
Please wait to end your life. Things can change in an instant.
I read that what makes people happiest is helping other people.
Please try this. I believe it will be just the break from your troubles you need!

I just went thru something very similar to what you experienced recently myself. One thing to keep in mind is that whatever was said to you is not fact but an opinion from someone else. Reduce your exposure to this person so you are not triggered this much by them. Realize you are NOT the sum total of someone else's opinion of you, it's really all about that person !!! Emotions love emotions, so think of something soothing and calming to distract yourself. These mini distractions will give you relief from the flooding of these scary feelings. For example, focus on the breath for several seconds an hour. I set my watch to remind me once an hour to sit down and just concentrate on my breath. Going outside the environment you are in for a short walk and focus on your five senses....... smell, taste, feel, hear, see. I go outside and sit on a bench and stare at a tree and look at all the details every day. This helps get me out of my head and "those thoughts". Try not to judge yourself too !! Glad you came here and keep talking too. Let us know how you are doing. If all else fails and your emotions intensify, please call 911. When I went thru this and 911 came to my home, I was soo relieved that I could turn over all this struggle to someone who could help me and I was safe. I also create a safe home in my mind. I visualize the interior of this safe home, what does it take to feel safe with myself in this home. I also use a weighted blanket every day while I practice meditation as that helps. I also play alot of games on my Kindle Fire as anything mathematical takes me out of emotion mind. These emotions can last only seconds, but remember that emotions love to build upon themselves, so redirecting the emotion to something pleasant will help and eventually that strong surge and urge of emotion will begin to dissipate. Hope some of this will help you. Keep talking and come back to let us know how you are doing !!

Welcome to DS. I am so glad you reached out here. This group is so encouraging and supportive. Everyone here understands the struggles of depression and anxiety. Know you are not alone there are others who care and understand. Have you been to a counselor for your depression? What about a psychiatrist? I struggled for over 20 years. I found with the right medication and counseling combination, I feel better. Depression is an illness that is a chemical imbalalnce in the brain. Often cause by our thoughts related to ourselves and our circumstances. Once our chemicals are off, it takes medication to help regulate them. Kinda like a person with diabetes, they need insulin to regulate there sugar levels. The same with the chemicals in our brain, they need to be regulated. However, medication alone isn't the answer, there is an underlying reason for depression. I have been on a self-journey of trying to understand why I do what I do. With the help of a life coach. I have began healing from past hurts people have said, letting go of the past, moving forward, and finding things that bring me pleasure in life. Basically, I stopped taking life so seriously. I spent time praying and surrounding myself with uplifting songs, verses, and people. I have learned I don't have to be depressed but it takes a conscious effort to be aware of my thoughts and mindset and change them as soon as possible. I know my strength comes from God. I can't do it on my own. I will be praying for you and here to chat anytime. God bless and lots of hugs!

How are you feeling this week? I have been praying for you. Hugs!