I’ve been battling depression since I can remember being in elementary school. It’s gotten better and worse over the years but over these months everything in my life feels like it’s falling apart and I want to end it all . I haven’t had these very strong suicidal emotions since I was 16 . Today someone close to me said something that triggered me so bad I’ve been in crisis all day trying to not take my life .
I woke up this morning and I was so scared of I know not what. Palpitations, stomach churning usual things, except that for the 1st time ever my lip was quivering. I managed to get moving and did some housework, now its the afternoon, although my lip isnt quivering I am nervy to say the least of it. The day is dragging on and on.
And this is how it goes each day....