Depression Support Group
Depression is a real and debilitating condition that is often misunderstood by family and friends. Its meaning can range from a prolonged period of sadness to an actual mental illness with specific symptoms. Find and share experiences with others who are going through the same struggles.
I have never posted on one of these before and don't really know what to say but I guess I'll just give it a go and see what happens. I have been feeling rather down for a while, a long while actually. If I try to remember when I started having breakdowns I would say it was when I was about 17. I'm not even sure if they are true breakdowns but all I know is sometimes I cannot even get the energy to move. When it started I would come home and lay on the couch and cry, truly cry. This would happen once or twice a month and they have become more frequent. I am 22 now and the last year has been especially bad. I'm sure this is all very cliche but cliches are cliches because they are true. I have never been in a relationship and see no sign of changes there, I was never a star athlete or student in fact I will soon be a 5th year senior in college which I suppose isn't that bad but all in all when I look at my life I always think that I'm surrounded by people that are doing things I wish I could be. Mainly my friends, when I hang out with them the topic always seems to move to girls, traveling, college stories and the future. I was always the commuter type student so have never really lived the "college life" and as far as the future goes I can't really say there's anything on the horizon. I am one year away from graduating with a degree in a field I have lost interest in and feel to ashamed to tell my friends and family because they have supported me for so long. I apologize if this has turned into a poor me speech but writing this down has already started making me feel better. These are all things I wish I could tell to my friends and family face to face but I'm just not ready. I'm glad I found this website and I hope I can read and maybe even help some of you someday.
I believe that no matter what you've majored in, the value of your degree will be the real gain. If you end up doing something different from what you've planned, so be it.
Also, I know it seems like everyone around you has it all together. However, you are judging your insides as compared to their outsides. At your age I had never been in a relationship either. It's OK, it's not weird... it's different than you'd like it to be, but things will happen for you.
Welcome, hon. :-)
Much of your story was my story. I lived on campus, but my love live was much like yours. I know it is a cliche (I won't quote you here) but one day I asked out a girl who was "right under my nose" and BAM, it clicked like magic.
Be open to friends, be a friend, remember little things about people. A woman wrote here (don't remember exactly who) suggesting that us men notice and compliment women on things they can control, like hair style, clothing, etc; not things they can't, like physical attributes. That was a condensed version, so let it grow on you.
In any event, hang in there, it can and will get better.
Good luck to you and welcome to DS!
If you are genuinely experiencing depression, that can zap interest in things that used to provide a great deal of satisfaction. Your lack of excitement about your major may be chemical. I've been there; it's real, and I know it firsthand.
Don't think of it as a waste of time...consider it a discipline that you got through. Educated people can always change direction and still come out ahead. You're young, you've got lots of life ahead of you---and we can wake up each day and re-design our lives.
Hugs and hope you make good friends, here
Welcome.
I would like to repeat the advice about seeing a doctor and/or a consellor. I wasted a lot of years trying to deal with crap on my own.
and you have helped, just by posting this...
if you need anything, PM me..