Hi, I'm in a really bad place right now. This is really my only place to vent right now because I don't feel comfortable actually talking to someone face to face, I feel like no one would really understand me even if I do talk to someone. I know my feelings are kinda petty and I worry, and get upset about little things. But all these things that people do and say build up inside this bottle inside me and lately it's been very full, when this bottle overflows I just want to cry every second of the day. I sit in the bottom of the shower and cry with my music blasting in the back ground so no one in my household can hear me. Being a teenager (15) I can't afford a therapist myself and I don't want to ask my parents to pay for sessions, because then I feel like they would start babying me and treating me like I'm fragile, like I could break at any second. I also don't want to stress myself over all the little things cuz again I don't want that bottle to overflow, so if anyone would be kind enough to give me some tips on anything that would be very much appreciated.
I've been thinking a lot. A lot of my depression comes not having enough connection and purpose in life. I think purpose and meaning really just come from family. And so what if there is something wrong with your family. Just devastating. And then, what is your purpose. To find another family? That is nearly impossible. Not a real one anyway. I've just been thinking a lot about...
I've been feeling exetremley bored and depressed, like nothing makes me happy and nothing feels Interesting, I'm not suicidal I just feel like nothing is important or matters