Why do I continue to CHOOSE depression? Why do I continue to CHOOSE to give in? Why do I continue thoughts, behaviors ad choices that lead me back to the same place that I claim to want to stay away from? Why does my sadness win? Why do I sabotage myself when I've made progress? Why do make it so I don't meet men? Why do I choose loneliness? Why does my social anxiety eat me a live? Why am I not living the life I know that I could be?
Why does rejection hurt me so badly? Why do I care so much about what certain people think? Why do I make it about me and have so much difficulty admitting that the other person is imperfect with flaws and it may not be all about me?
Since yesterday I have been extremely depressed and having someone to talk to would listen is difficult in my personal life.This morning I focused on staying relaxed because I knew what was coming with depression. Despite trying to delay depression it is slowly creeping in for another full-blown day.I will have to make another doctors appointment this morning for antidepressants. This morning, I...
i seem to be on my way to a mental breakdown. things have been bad for many years with my broken body & spirit, but this is different. thanks for just letting me tell someone.